her truth

living a bit on the edge

Holding Emily, Sandra was to the futon to be sitting to eye the television has she was having a big of a break, to then look to the side to watch Diego come down to go about to head straight to the kitchen.
Sandra gulped to take in a deep breathe.
Ever since the day she believed Diego was going to hit her, Sandra lived on the edge and to make sure she didn't talk really to him. Honestly Sandra didn't even know what to say.
It had been a very stressful week for her to have it be the weekend again.
Sandra then peered her eyes to the side to watch him come about to then sit next to her to grab the remote to place something he wanted on to eat the breakfast she made, Sandra then slowly went to the ground so she didn't have to be next to Diego to then place Emily down for her to stumble about to go and start to play with her toys.
"I have to work on a car today."
Sandra kept her eyes forward.
"Okay."
"I'm going to drop you and Emily off at my mom's."
"That's okay we can stay here."
Diego looked to Sandra.
"You sure?"
Sandra nodded.
Diego shrugged to get up after he was done eating to throw away what he could to place the dish to the sink to then leave without another word.
Sandra watched him go to then shake her head to look at Emily who was sitting in the corner to be playing and cooing, Sandra then went to her to eye over.
"It's hot today, let's set up the pool. We play in water?"
Emily looked to Sandra to smile and wide.
After getting Emily in her swim suit Sandra set up the pool to then be sitting to record what she could to see her daughter having a blast in the pool.
Sandra then placed the phone to her side to place her hands back to look over Emily to take in deep breathes.
Why can't life just be this simple all the time? Why can't it be this peaceful?
Sandra signed to keep eyeing over Emily has she was having a blast in the water.
She then got up to go and play with her daughter in the water to let what was going on in her life go away even if it was just for a moment.
After getting a bit wet, Sandra laid to her side to the futon after feeding Emily some milk and food to have a hand to her stomach to watch her daughter breathe in and out to be fast asleep.
Sandra had a face to then roll to her back to close her eyes to take in deep breathes, she didn't want to cry again at her miserable life she had with her daughter's father.
Sighing, Sandra then got up to go to the kitchen to make something light to eat to then turn about to go to the futon to sit down to start to eat at her food to turn her head to eye over Emily who had moved to her side to still be in deep sleep, playing in the water took a lot out of her.
Sandra eyed over her precious child to then turn her head to look forward to make a very hard face.
Why can't your father just be better then he is now? This week we haven't really talked and I don't want to. I know he was trying to hit me and I've been thinking over our relationship and I just don't know why I'm still here? He treats me so bad and Emily has to see this. Will this affect her when she's old like me? Will she even remember?
Sandra took in a very deep breathe to place her plate to the side to look forward to dart her eyes.
What am I going to do about this? I keep talking to my theripist which is helping a bit not nothing about Diego and I are changing so.... But like my therapist said I need to talk to Diego, need to communicate but that's not how we are.
Sandra placed her hands to her eyes to groan, she over thought this over and over again all the time.
Sandra then took her hands from her face to turn her head to see Emily go to her stomach to then eye over her mother to coo.
Sandra couldn't help but to smile to then go to Emily to grab to then start to go about to figure out what else they could do.
Having a great day with her daughter, Sandra and Emily were to the floor to be playing for Sandra to turn her head to make a face, Diego came in emitting negative energy to then take off his shoes to go to the kitchen with a face.
He then came about to eye over Sandra.
"Where's my dinner?"
"I didn't know when you were going to come home, you didn't text me.'
"I've told you, Sandra you need to have food for me, all the time!"
Sandra flexed her jaw to then get up.
"Can you watch emily so I can make your dinner?"
"That's your job too, your the woman."
Sandra rolled her eyes to then turn about to gently grab Emily to place her on her hip to go to the kitchen without saying anything to then start on dinner for Diego who then flopped down on the futon to turn on the television to stay to watch something for Sandra to be very irritated with his deamonor and how he acted to make him a grand dinner.
Going about with Emily still to her hip she had the plate out for him for Diego to eye to sign.
"What?"
Diego looked to Sandra.
"I want something my mom would make."
"Okay.... What would that be?"
Diego scoffed to then turn his head to look to the television.
"You should know."
Sandra gritted her teeth to then place the plate next to him to go upstairs to go to there bed to have Emily next to her for them to go to sleep, Sandra was not going to deal with Diego not after the day she had with Emily.