her truth

starting to lose myself

After what happened the other day, Sandra was to school to be sitting in class to be looking forward to sign here and there, her mind was not on the lecture but on what happened.

She couldn't understand why her boyfriend took a shower with his ex wife and yet came over to her father's house to get drunk with her she forced Sandra to give him a blow job.

Sandra took in a deep breathe to then look down at her desk.

So.... They took a shower together but did not have sex? She is pregnant with another man's baby but Diego did say she would abort if he gave her another chance, but he said he didn't want to and he wanted to be with her.

Diego did treat her better then other guys and he didn't care she was a virgin, Sandra really didn't know what to do next about this.

She was in love with Diego. He treated her so well other then a few red flags.

Sandra gulped and hard.

He loves you Sandra. Everyone makes mistakes. That is all what this is, other then that he texts you everyday, you have semi fun together. Would like it if he would stop forcing me to smoke with him but I want to share in his interests. I want to be someone really special to him. Maybe this is how relationships are? Maybe how love is?

Sandra flexed her jaw to keep thinking about this to not at all have her mind on the lecture at hand to have the class be over to go back to her dorms.

Laying to her side, Sandra just wanted someone to love her for who she was and not for the fact she was a virgin, Diego was a guy who did that for her, they also had fun and he treated her special, except these times and what happened with his ex wife.

Sandra signed to turn to her back to look up to the ceiling to place a hand to her forehead with a face.

What am I going to do about this? Did they actually have sex? Is he lying to me? So far I trust him fully but something about this is just not adding up.

Sandra turned her head to peer her eyes down has her phone went off, making a face, she then took her hand from her forehead to then grab the phone to place it above her head to look it over.

Diego was texting her telling Sandra how much he loved her and so many sweet things that made Sandra's heart soar in her chest.

Diego: so would it be okay to come to your dorm?

Sandra: I don't see a problem.

Diego: should be up there soon.

Sandra let Diego where her dorms was to then place her phone to the side of her to eye up to the ceiling.

You need to let this go. He really is a sweet guy, just give him a chance.

Sandra turned her head to then look to her phone to sign.

An hour later, Diego came to her dorm for them to talk a bit to then lay down with the other to then go to sleep.

Waking the next morning, Sandra had turned to her side to then eye over Diego to really eye over him.

I need to trust him that nothing happened. Your a virgin. Why would he be here with you if he didn't love you?

Sandra darted her eyes over him to then turn to get up to then start to get ready for school.

Leaving her dorm with her boyfriend to the bed she then took in deep breathes to not think about the day prior to think about the day ahead of her and thinking it was all going to be okay.

After her lecture, she went back for Diego to be dressed to be on his phone to then move up to eye over Sandra with a smile, she moved about to then go to sit next to him for them to eye over his phone to watch videos to laugh her and there to be surrounded by his love.

Not having a class the next day, sandra went back down with her boyfriend to go to his mother's for them to sit to the couch to watch television for sandra to watch over his step sister who was playing dolls to the floor, to then eye up to see his mother who was in the kitchen to be sitting to the table to be on her technology, to then turn her head to look to see his step dad come in after work to say something in Spanish to then go straight to the kitchen for his mother to get up to get him something to eat.

Sandra eyed them to then look back to the television to eye over what they were watching for Diego to go to her ear.

"My friend wants us to come over. Let's go."

Sandra moved her head back to look over Diego.

"What friend?"

"Sul."

Sandra took in a deep breathe to look back to the television. Sul was that one friend she met on the second date she had with her boyfriend, the one who did drugs.

Diego eyed over her.

"Don't you want to go have fun?"

Sandra gritted her teeth to then turn her head to look over Diego.

"Is this.... What you...."

Diego got up to then grab Sandra's hand to then pull her along for them to place there shoes on for diego to say something to his family in Spanish to then drag Sandra a bit unwilling to go.

To his friends, they all sat around in a circle in his garage, to be laughing for Sandra to eye her boyfriend has he was drinking and smoking to hand her something to smoke for her to shake her head.

Sul looked to her to nod.

"I can respect a woman who says no."

Diego eyed over sandra to make a face to then place the pipe to his mouth.

"More for us then." He said in a tone.

Sandra looked to him to then shrug it off for them to spend the rest of the night with his friend to then later go to his mother's to fall asleep to the mattress on the floor.