her truth

it's better when he's gone

Kissed on the cheek, Diego went to work early, for Sandra to then roll to her back, to be sound asleep, she then twitched has she heard Emily. Opening her eyes Sandra peered then down sleepily to be a bit confused. Diego came in with an asleep Emily to place her next to Sandra, she looked to Emily to then eye over Diego.
"What are you doing?" She whispered.
"Better if she sleeps with you."
"Diego.... I'm doing the ferber method."
"Just let her sleep with you."
Sandra made a face to then watch Diego go to roll her eyes to then look to Emily has she was still asleep to her back, Sandra went to her side to eye over Emily to then close her eyes.
It wasn't Sandra didn't want to sleep next to her daughter but she was trying to do a method so Emily could sleep in her crib. Sandra was beyond exhausted. She had to keep the house to Diego's standards, cook in his standards and now take care of Emily in his standards even though he is never home, given work and him leaving on the weekends to go and play with his friends to drink and smoke while Sandra never got any of her time.
Sandra then signed, Emily woke up to start to cry, Sandra moved closer to shush her softly until Sandra had to play with Emily for several hours before Sandra and her could take a nap.
By 1pm, Sandra was making lunch to have a bit of an attitude, that was another reason why she didn't have Emily sleep in the same bed, Emily then will walk up when it's time to sleep, what Diego was doing was not at all helping.
Sandra then made the lunch to then go to Emily to place her to her high chair to then go to grab the food to then place it down to eye over her daughter with a very tired smile, the two ate for Sandra to then clean up Emily for them to go for a walk with the dog.
Sandra laughed here and there has they walked about the place, given Diego's car broke down again and he took Sandra's.
Sandra watched has Emily waddled about with the leash, every time Sandra would try to help Emily wouldn't let her.
Going about, they eventually placed the dog inside for them to then stay outside for awhile. Sandra was happy to be outside, she always seemed to have to be in that town house. She liked to be outside, it gave her a Sense of freedom.
At a puddle, Sandra stood to the side to watch over Emily has she was playing in it, Sandra was happy she gave her daughter the boots.
Emily laughed and giggled has she played in the puddle.
Sandra then took out her phone to take pictures to have that smile to her face.
She loved these times together the best.
Emily then got out of the puddle to go to her mother to place her hand to hers to then pull along.
The two spent the most outside, to then go back, has Sandra knew if she didn't have dinner ready by the time Diego came home he would be very mean to her, has they went about Sandra stopped with Emily to her arms to make a long face. Diego was home.
Sandra took in a very deep breathe to then go forward, inside, Diego was to the couch with his brow furrow to be watching television to then turn his head to look to her.
Sandra eyed him to then place Emily down for her to then go about to find some toy to then sit to start to play with it, Sandra then went about to the kitchen to start in on dinner, Diego got up to go about to place himself to the wall to then eye over her.
"Where are you?"
"Outside, walking around."
"Oh. Great for you. I come home early and there is nothing to eat."
Sandra gritted her teeth.
There is plenty to eat if you would just make something.
"I'm sorry. Emily and I went outside to go and have some fun walking about."
"What about the dog?"
"We took him for awhile. Came back to drop him off and kept going."
"That's a cruel thing to do."
"Diego.... He was hungry and thirsty."
"Still.... You need to take better care of him and to make sure there is something for me to eat when I get home. Not fair to me. I work all day long and I come home to nothing? While what? You do nothing all day, least you can do is make sure I have food when I come home."
Sandra signed up start to make the food faster. Diego scoffed at the sign.
"You are so ungrateful some times. Never mind, I'm going to go and get something. Your so lazy."
Sandra turned her head to watch Diego turn to then leave slamming the door, Sandra signed once more has that slam made Emily cry.
Sandra placed the food she was chopping down to then go about to go to Emily to Grab at her to then sit to the edge of the futon to shush her gently to hold her tight has her father's attitude made Emily scared.
"Shhhh, it's okay my baby. It's okay.... Daddy is just...... Yeah....shhhh."
Sandra rocked them both has she felt scared has well, Sandra felt general fear of Diego for quite some time, didn't help that one day she knew he was going to hit her if she hadn't spoken up.
Sandra then closed her eyes for her chin to quiver has her tears started to go down her face. She felt stuck in the relationship she was in with this man. Sandra really didn't know what else to do and who to talk to about it. Would they believe her? Could they help? Sandra just didn't know. She also started to blame herself for this behavior, maybe it was something she was doing to cause him to act this way. Sandra really didn't know, and at the time she didn't know he was a narcissist, sociopathic, pathological liar who was one day going to do unspeakable things. But again, at this time how could she have known?