her truth

trying to help

Has days seemed to go by, Sandra had to hear Diego moan about work and the fact he didn't want to go, and talk to her about how tired he was and a lie of different things, Sandra then took it upon herself to then look for a job that could help out the family and would have Diego work less so he could get more sleep and time with the girls, Sandra was able to land a job where she would be a school photographer, she did have a degree, kind of in that field, Sandra worked hard on the interviews to think the first one she didn't do good to get a follow up to which she went.
Landing the job, Sandra felt very confident and happy, she waited until it was more secure to then go over to her in laws to show them the great news, however it was not seemed to be so good, Sandra had given her phone to her mother in law who saw the video to then give it back with a face, Sandra looked over her to have her face go down has well.
Sandra then started to talk happily about it, has her girls played right in front, while Diego was to the table to be eating food.
"I just don't know about this Sandra, there are times you would have to leave."
"I know, but Diego could work less hours, I would be about to contribute more and help our family."
"I really just don't know, think you should stay home with the girls and Diego needs to just work."
Sandra looked to Diego's back to then eye back at her mother in law.
"Diego is very stressed about his job, given he works in the factory portion, he works long hours for us and.... He is so tired. I really would like to help has much has I can financially."
Diego's mother made a face to then shrug to pick up Emily for Sarah to then follow, Sandra watched her go to the kitchen feeling crushed.
Later, they went home for Sandra to go over what her mother in law said to feel defeated, she thought she would think it was a great thing to do, especially for there family, given some how they never had any money.
Going home, surprisingly in silence, Sandra got everyone situated not to be happy her father was having a bad health day, so he stayed in bed to be behind the counter to do the dishes for Diego to be before her to eye.
"So...... You are not going to have this job."
Sandra made a face to then slowly look up.
"What?"
"Well, I didn't want to tell you right away, but I finally got in the office, I will be less stressed and don't have to over work my body. I'll be making more money, so you don't have to work."
"Diego.....I really want to do this. Now you know how I love our kids but I would like to get out like you do and...."
"God stop being selfish!"
Sandra stopped talking to eye down to take in deep breathes, she didn't want to cry in front of Diego, he would make her feel even worse.
"Now listen Sandra, this just isn't the time right now. Let me with this job for awhile and then we can talk about you getting a job."
"But Diego, this job won't be here in a couple of months or whenever."
"Well, this is what is best for the family, you need to be here and raise our girls, stop being so selfish and just thinking about yourself, you need to see the bigger picture."
Sandra signed to nod.
"Okay."
"Good."
Diego then turned to go to the couch to then start to watch television to start to laugh and hard while the girls played about him, Sandra shook her head to get done with the dishes, to then turn to leave with her phone, Sandra went outside to walk to the mall boxes to then call her one sister.
"Hey Sandra, what's up?"
Sandra signed and hard to have a hand to her forehead to rub.
"I'm not going to take this job."
"Why? You sounded so excited about it."
"Diego said it wasn't the time and....."
"That's bullshit, this job seemed to be so good for you and your family. Why won't he let you have it?"
"He wants me to stay home."
Even Called me selfish.
"He should stay home also, you can work, he can work, it's not the 1950s, women can work too."
"I know, I told him that. He just doesn't want that right now."
"Wait isn't he the one who said he needed help, that he was so tired?"
"Yes, but he is going into the office and told me it would be less to is body so i don't know."
"Him going to the office could be good for you two, think you still need to have a job though Sandra."
"Tried that. Everyone seems to want me to stay home and raise the girls, I'm fine with that but I also want to help with the finances, Diego said we always don't have any money so I really am just trying to help."
"I know you are. Diego is being kind of an asshole right now, but maybe this could be good for the family, I really don't know."
Sandra signed harder to then nod, to feel so very defeated.
"Yeah..... Guess it is."
Sandra talked to get one older sister for awhile to then turn about when she was done to go back inside to see the girls playing by themselves to see Diego to the television to be still watching it and laughing, Sandra rolled her eyes to then go to the girls to suggest they go outside to then play given there father was watching something they shouldn't, Sandra then watched over her girls to then email this job to say never mind to start to feel like she was sinking into the abyss.