her truth

our time together

Sandra looked to Orrin has they were awaiting to go into a night club for Sandra to then look forward to sign a bit, the two were taking things slow, they weren't dating officially and Sandra just wasent feeling anything for him. Orrin was a overly sweet guy but Sandra stupidly couldn't stop thinking about Diego.
Widening her eyes the doors finally opened for them to go in, they went straight upstairs for Sandra to order them drinks for the two to then go to the dance floor and dance. Sandra really liked to dance to loud music, has the date went on, Orrin was about to keep up with Sandra even though he was on the heavy set type of way, to be sweating bullets to be smiling very hard at Sandra.
Finishing another drink, Sandra left Orrin taking him she needed to go to the bathroom to be sitting down to feel still weird and a bit confused, she hadn't drank that much and she kept having to go to the bathroom.
Sandra shook her head to gather some toilet paper.
"Has to be because of the alcohol."
Sandra then left the bathroom to head to the bar tender with a face, she was out of her spending money, she then turned her head to look over Orrin who went to her to look her over.
"What's wrong?"
"Don't have any money left." She laughed.
"What do you drink?"
Sandra shook her head.
"I can't have you pay, that's not fair. You drove up here and everything."
"It's okay. One won't hurt."
Sandra looked over Orrin to smile has he then guessed the right drink to then get another.
Sandra looked him over.
"Are you going to be okay to drive?"
"I know my limit. I'll drink a little too then be able to drive, don't worry "
Sandra made a face to then look to her drink to then consume, Orrin drinking well under the influence reminded her of Diego.
Drinking half of her drink to placed her hand to orrins she took him to the dance floor to let loose for a change to but think about anyone or anything.
The two danced on the other for another couple to come near for the woman to eye over Sandra.
"You have some great moves."
Sandra looked to them to smile to continue to dance on Orrin a bit, a bit later the bar closed for them to then go for Sandra to have drank just a bit to much, the two talked while Sandra drunkly told him how bad Diego was and how she had her miscarriage, she told Orrin she wanted to have two kids both with e names.
Orrin nodded to give Sandra advice here and there.
Turning her head Sandra widened her eyes, police lights went off.
"Orrin? Oh shit."
"We will be fine. I'm not drunk and was not driving fast. Maybe serving a bit."
Sandra signed to then go to grab her purse to then play with a police issued pepper spray her father who used to be a cop gave to her since this was her first date with Orrin.
Orrin looked to it has he started to slow and pulled over.
"What's that?"
"My pepper spray, don't know why I took it out but I did." She laughed.
Sandra then made a face has she accidentally fired it off in her hands.
Orrin couldn't help but to laugh to then turn his head to talk to the officer who let them go with a warning.
The two then safely got to Sandra place where she needed to place her hands into water since the pepper spray was hurting her hands.
Orrin and Sandra slept to the floor, the next day Orrin excused himself to then leave, Sandras hands stopped hurting for to then take a shower to make a face.
Orrin is so much nicer then your ex, why can't you stop thinking of Diego and actually he happy with Orrin?
Sandra signed to then get out of the shower to then wrap a towel about herself to then go to her couch to lay to her side to eye over the whiteness of the wall to shake her head here and there.
I really wish I never met Diego, can't seem to be happy without him being with me and I don't understand why. He treated me so badly, wasent there when I had my miscarriage, only wanted to be with me for sex...... Why am I like this with him? What is wrong with me?
Sandra turned to get back to place a hand to her forehead to rub to grit her teeth.
I really hate this about myself, I hate that I love Diego, hate I want him and not Orrin, Orrin is such a great guy and Diego is a piece of shit.
Sandras chin started to quiver has tears started to go down.
Why do I have to be like this? What is wrong with me? Why can't I just move on from Diego? I don't even think he even ever loved me and yet I feel so much love for an asshole!
Sandra signed to then get up to place her hands to the edge of the couch to look down to dart her eyes.
He is just going to keep continuing to hurt me, I don't think he ever loved me, I'm nothing but my body to him. Orrin is actually trying to find out who I am and even is still to my side after everything I have told him about my ex. I don't know why but he is and I'm still thinking of Diego.....God! I'm such a shitty person.
Sandra got up to place her arms about herself to then go to get bedroom to get dressed to then go to her kitchen to make something to eat to be getting very depressed over this situation.
Sandra signed has she ate to not know what was going to happen in her life and soon.