her truth

my forced routine

Waking up with two girls, early in the morning, Sandra had bags under her eyes to take in a very deep breathe, to then slowly move her head to the side to look over Diego who didn't even roll over, she eyed him narrowly, to then roll her eyes to then get up to yawn, Diego forced them to have sex last night, even though Sandra was very tired, her father had to go to the hospital, given his illnesses, and when she got back, Diego told her they're were going to have sex given he had to watch the girls all on his own, so Sandra didn't have any sleep.
Her girls started to jump up and down on her.
"We're hungry! Wake up!" They laughed.
Sandra nodded to then look back to Diego.
"Diego, I'm still very tired, can you make breakfast?"
Diego then snored for Sandra to roll her eyes to then get up to go she place on her robe while her children followed.
"Breakfast! Breakfast!" Her oldest chanted.
"Okay okay, mommies awake. I got it."
They all then went down for Sandra to make a very healthy full breakfast, to place the girls to the table for her to sit to eye them, a bit later she watched Diego come down to look about to scoff, he then went to the microwave to see his breakfast to heat it up.
"It's a mess in here."
Sandra yawned.
"We are barely eating breakfast. Diego, could you eat with the girls so I can go and sleep for a little?"
"No."
Sandra signed and hard to then shake her head, she was so very tired.
Diego then grabbed his phone and food to go and eat away from the family to then laugh and hard, Sandra gritted her teeth, she hated weekends when he was home. Diego never helped and sat on his ass and was always on his phone.
Sandra after she ate, had to clean the whole kitchen by herself, get the girls cleaned, all by herself and then get herself and the girls ready for the day, she then had to clean the whole house on her own.
This was her daily routine. Sandra didn't even know why she asked Diego to help anymore, he never ever did and he was always on his phone.
By mid afternoon, Sandra was in the girls room to watch them play, to yawn, to text her father who let Sandra know he was doing okay.
Sandra worried over her father a lot.
Sandra then looked outside to see it was very sunny, she then was able to get the girls to go down to then start to play in the living room, to see Diego still to the couch to be to his phone.
"Diego, could you please watch the girls outside so I can sleep?"
Diego moved his phone down to really look over her.
"You are so lazy Sandra. Watch the girls. I work 5 days a week and weekends fix cars, all you do is laze away here at the house, why are you so tired?" He laughed to go back to his phone.
Sandra furrowed her brow to roll her eyes to then gather the girls to go outside to get away from Diego. She was livid pissed.
Sandra did everything on her own, Diego didn't do a damn thing, only thing he did was work in his office and he was still bitching. Sandra had you clean, and it started to have to be his way or he would complain, even though he never did Landry or dishes or took care of the kids. He wanted Sandra, Emily and Sarah to be perfect, wear the perfect clothes, wear there hair perfectly, given Diego also stated he was perfect, this was getting to Sandra has no one was perfect.
Sandra rolled her eyes has thoughts of how demanding Diego was, was starting to get to her in a bad way. Sandra then got up to clear her mind to then go play with the children to the play ground Sandra got.
After awhile, Sandra had made a wonderful big dinner to which Diego didn't appreciate, to be mostly on his phone for Sandra to be mostly to the girls, she then had to clean up that dinner, get the girls ready for bed and to then take a shower to go to bed.
Sandra was exhausted has she laid to the side to have her eyes closed to then groan, Emily was crying, which then woke up her sister crying, Sandra Took in deep breathes has she was trying to get them to self soothe.
Diego then went in to look to her.
"Do you not hear them crying!"
Sandra opened her eyes to then look to him.
"I'm following the girls doctor and letting them self soothe."
Diego scoffed.
"You are a horrible mother!"
Sandras eyes widened to then get up in exhaustion and depression.
"What the Fuck ever then!"
Sandra then went to get her girls, gently to then take them to the bed for them all to sleep, Diego watched this to shake his head.
"Your crazy! Why did you bring them to the bed! We can't if there here."
"They are crying for me. Emily doesn't like the dark, even though I place a lot of lights in there, so this is the only way. What else would you like me to do!"
Diego rolled his eyes to then go to the bathroom to go and smoke.
"You need to calm down."
Sandra looked down with a hard face to then turn her head to scream into the pillow, Diego didn't help and he offered advice.
Sandra breathed in and hard to slowly move her head out to have tears running down her face, Emily then looked to her to place her little hands to Sandra face.
"It's okay Mommy."
Sandras chin quivered to close her eyes.
No.... It's not okay, your father treats me like a slave and is so mean to me all the time, I can't take it!
Sandra then moved closer to Emily not to know, later on in life, with another therapist, she would let Sandra know, her with the girls were all trauma bounded together because of the poor treatment of Diego.