her truth

not feeling like myself

Has the days passed, Sandra still felt very weak, taking things slowly she was able to manage, she still had to take care of a whole house to herself, Diego didn't lift a finger to cook or clean and he didn't really help raise the girls, Sandra who was extremely anemic was left to do everything on her own for the most part.
To one of the days, it was the fourth of July, they had been walking about a firework alley, for Sandra to be feeling not very good, to be walking about with Diego has he spent money on very expensive fireworks with a smile.
From what Diego told her, they were living pay check to pay check, that's why he was working all the time and never was able to be home to help her with the girls, didn't help when he got home he would go upstairs, lie about using the toilet, to be on his phone to be smoking, but every time Sandra would talk to him about it, he would make an excuse and then would make Sandra feel bad.
Sandra to the most part of there relationship let Diego do what he wanted and didn't really talk to him about things he shouldn't be wasting his money on, mostly Sandra just didn't want to fight, she had to do everything for them, her family and his, it was a lot for Sandra.
Getting what Diego wanted, they then walked back to the car with his brother, to load it up, Sandra laid there with her head to the seat to let it loll, she was very tired.
Diego would look at Sandra and make a face and or make fun of her in front of his brother, it was Rather disrespectful however Diego was always like that to Sandra.
Getting back to his mother's, Sandra went slowly in after helping him bring in the fireworks to then go to the small couch to lay to her side has she didn't feel good to wrap her arms about herself, eventually his mother came by to tell Sandra maybe if she ate better she wouldn't feel like this, Sandra looked over her a bit confused, food didn't have anything to do with this.
Sandra nodded for her and her mother and law to talk a bit for Sandra to watch her go back into the kitchen, eventually Emily came about to lay down next to her for the two to cuddle.
Sandra looked about to then eye Diego.
"Where's Sarah?"
To the kitchen, he turned for the two to eye the other.
"My mom said she's still asleep and for you to stop being lazy "
Sandra narrowed her eyes to then lay her head back down to cuddle Emily closer, Sandras daughters were the only ones that made Sandra feel happy.
Eventually Emily who was three ish got up to then run about to play, soon Sandra did have to get up to go to Diego's mother's room to lay down to then breast feed Sarah, Sandra was trying to have bottles made during the night for Diego to help, but even when she did have bottles he never ever got up and fed Sarah. Diego and Sandra had fights about this and a lot, he would be too tired after working to do that. Sandra was tired too but got up during the night to feed Sarah.
Sandra looked over Sarah who was to her breast to be feeding from it to sign. This was not the family Sandra was wanting, there was no love in it, Diego also treated Sandra very badly in front of there daughters all the time.
Sandra then moved closer to Sarah to close her eyes has she was not trying to cry.
After she fed Sarah, Sandra moved up to free her from her swaddle to then get up with her to move about with a face, Sandra was very tired and didn't want to be there, she wanted to go home to be taken care of, but she knew that would never happen.
Going about, Diego's mother came to Sandra to take Emily for Sandra to then go back to the couch to sit to look over the food she made, to then turn her head to eye over her has she held Sarah.
"I think you need to go and see a doctor. You're always tired."
"There's.... Nothing really a doctor can do. I'm really anemic."
"Oh why?"
Sandra raised an eye brow.
"Because when I had Sarah they cut an artery, didn't Diego tell you?"
Diego's mother widened her eyes to look over Sandra in surprise.
"No he didn't tell me that."
"Yeah, I lost a lot of blood, you would have to talk to my sister though, she said she saw it, that's why I'm so tired. The doctor said it's going to take me awhile to get back to where I need to be."
Diego's mother made a face to then bop Sarah to then get up.
Sandra looked over her to then shrug to hear her and Diego talk in Spanish, Sandra didn't know a lot of Spanish but she knew enough to know they were talking about her.
Eating everything, Sandra then got up to go outside given her sister was there watching Emily and the other kids, Sandra wanted to get pictures of this, Sandra took pictures of everything, given being with her kids was the only piece of happiness she got out of her life.
Going out, she had to walk slowly to then go to Emily to take a picture to then rush to her, on accident a sparkler piece got to her hand, Sandra placed her phone away to pick up Emily to then take her to Diego's mother for a cold patch.
Sandras sister went in to say it'll heal and soon, little did she know Emily would grow up with that mark to her hand. After that the day progressed to where Sandra missed her first fourth given she was too tired and Emily with friends was able to have quit the fourth, the only thing that made Sandra really happy was Diego was to tired to really get at her so Sandra was able to heal, for now.