her truth

feeling lonely

Has her pregnancy progressed, Sandra was working full time and doing everything on her own to not be talking to her family given everyone was business, to be sitting to her couch to have a face has she had a full bowl of food to her lap to be eyeing to sign.
Sandra moved the bowl down to lay to her side to eye the wall.
During this pregnancy at this time, Sandra was feeling so very much alone.
She then shuffled to her back to eye over the ceiling to make a face to then get up to start walking around, however her place was very much clean and there wasn't anything to do.
Sandra then went back to the couch to sit to the edge to look down to feel very pathetic. She also didn't know if this was her new hormones or not.
Sandra got up again to then go to her bathroom to eye about has she was trying to find something to clean however there was nothing.
Sandra went about to go back to the couch to sit to the edge to eye down to shake her head.
I need to find something to do so I don't have to think about.....
Sandra took in a deep breathe to grab her bowl to then eat the contents to then go to the kitchen to place it in to wash to go about to get ready for bed.
Sandra to her bed was laying on her back to be eyeing up to have tears coming down her face.
She was feeling so very alone. Sandra had to do everything for herself and everyone else was busy.
Sandra went to her side has more tears fell.
What is this all about? I have never felt this alone before. Are these the hormones? I just don't get it.
Sandra closed her eyes to squeeze.
Don't call him! Don't call him! You need to get over this yourself.
Sandra couldn't help but cry herself to sleep.
The next day, Sandra was feeling a bit better, work and cleaning seemed to help, however she kept feeling so very lonely and that fact was starting to overwhelm her, and reasons unknown to her Diego not contacting her was making her feel more lonely. However Sandra fought the urge to text him. After what he said and the things he did Sandra knew talking to him was not going to give her a good outcome.
Going home, Sandra went inside to then look at her phone has she felt it vibrate to widen her eyes.
Diego: how is everything going? How is the baby?
Sandra: I'm fine. The baby is fine.
Diego: that's good.
Sandra darted her eyes over the text to make a face, it had been a week from the grocery shopping trip to this.
Sandra signed to then go about to place her phone to the kitchen counter to go about to make herself something to eat to hate herself.
She was missing Diego, the times they had together weren't all bad and she kept thinking about those rather then the ones she should have been thinking about.
Going to her living room, she sat down to open her computer to place on something to watch to sign here and there, she was trying so very hard not to think about Diego and her current situation.
Eating everything, she watched what she put on the computer to then peer her eyes to her phone to then eye it over to then shake her head to look forward.
Do not text him back. I need to think what I need to do next. Think I need to get another job. This one pays enough but for two?
Also do I want to keep living here or should I apply for someone else for us? I just want to do what is in the best interest for my baby.
Sandra placed her hand to her stomach to caress to eye.
I don't know how I am going to do this has of yet but I will be there for you my baby. I'm sorry this is not the situation that is ideal and your father and I....
Tears started to go down Sandras face to then place a hand to her eyes to then wipe away.
You need to stop thinking about him. You need to figure out what you are going to do next for your baby.
Sandra then got up to start to walk about to shake her head here and there.
I need to be focusing on my baby.... Not about there father..... Need to focus on me and my baby.
Sandra stopped to then place her hands to her stomach to dart her eyes about.
I need to really think about you my baby and what I need to do for you and I to survive, I don't think you're father and I will get back together and I need to be here for you.
Sandra made a hard face to then go to the couch to sit to the edge to look down to shake her head.
What am I going to do? Least I'm on a bit of government assistance, need to start to look for another job and need to.....
Sandra went to lay to her side to eye over the wall to make a very hard face, she was thinking about a list and doing it alone was starting to make Sandra feel lonely again.
Sandra shuffled to her back to eye over her being has the loneliness she felt was starting to over take her.
Sandra went to her other side to eye over the couch to wrap her arms about herself to have tears start to come down.
I hate that I'm doing all this hard things by myself...... Being pregnant and alone is.... So very hard......I just don't know what to do......
Sandra couldn't help but to weep at her current situation and how life was treating her.