her truth

just can't understand him

Has Sandra was getting dressed she then went to get full length mirror to eye to then go about to go to Emily who was to the bed to be playing about to look up to place down her toy she was playing with to then eye over her mother to then place her arms up for her with a huge smile.
Sandra couldn't help but to smile back to then grab up Emily to then turn to leave, they went downstairs for Sandra to then place Emily to her car seat to then go about to Diego's mother's, she was going to watch Emily has Sandra went to her therapist.
Dropping off Emily Sandra went back to her car that she actually had, given Diego was about to fix his other car to have tears in her eyes, she didn't like to leave her daughter, however she could not come to an appointment.
Taking in deep breathes, Sandra then placed her car into reverse to then start to go, she was happy her theripist was not far, parked she went in to go to the waiting room to not have to wait long to then go about with him after he came out to call for her, going inside his office the two sat down, for Sandra to look over her therapist who had a smile.
"So what has been going on with you lately Sandra, we haven't met for a bit."
"Sorry about that, unfortunately there is no help coming from Diego. I have Emily and I can't always get away, my sister's are all working, my dad is too far, luckily Diego's mother is right down the way."
The theripist nodded.
"That is very lucky. Well happy to have you, so what all has been going on?"
"Well a lot. I feel Diego cares more about himself and sex then he cares about Emily and me, he works all the time, is never home, I am raising our daughter all on my own. This isn't really fair to me and if I ask for his help I get him always telling me I'm tired, that's why we go to his mother's on the weekends but she cooks and cleans her home, so she's always busy, Diego is never there, he is always gone fixing cars and drinking plus smoking, he really hasn't grown up at all given we have a young baby, this is just over whelming me a bit."
"Has it should, we all need breaks."
Sandra nodded.
"I never ever get breaks, even when I sleep, either Emily wakes me up, Diego wakes me up, or i have to take Emily downstairs with me to sleep on the futon so I can have a moments rest "
"Have you've talked to Diego about this?"
"Yes, that doesn't help, he just gets mad and treats me horribly. You know, I want to have sex too but the way we.... You know, it doesn't really feel good, mostly hurts or he doesn't do anything for me so......I don't know, again I've tried to talked to him about this and he doesn't seem to care at all. I just don't know what to do anymore, I am trying so hard for us for Emily but....."
Sandra looked down defeated.
Her therapist looked over Sandra with a face.
"Sometimes we are struggling with something in our lives and we show that to the others in our lives, has Diego thought about going to a therapist?"
Sandra looked to her theripist.
"I've tried that too, he said he is perfect and doesn't need to go."
The theripist chuckled.
"Well no one is perfect. We are human beings with our own flaws."
"Something I've been telling him also. I am trying so hard to help him even though he treats me like crap, however maybe it is something I'm doing wrong......I just don't know what that is. I'm giving my all to be a perfect mother and...."
"Sandra, there is no perfect human being. Also you are not doing anything wrong, it sounds like you two are having very bad communication problems, I know you came to me in the beginning for couple counseling, maybe that is something you need to do now."
"He won't go. Diego doesn't seem to understand what he does can hurt other people."
"Well, you two it seems need to work on your communication skills, I can provide some worksheets for the two of you that I believe would help."
Sandra nodded.
"I would love those, I just want my relationship with Diego to be better, I'm also trying to find out why he is like this and why he treats me and our daughter so bad. You know, I told him in the beginning he didn't have to do what he is doing now, we didn't have to try for our daughter, Diego stayed, I didn't tell him to do that, however I feel he is blaming me."
The theripist made a face.
"I'm sorry you feel that way."
Sandra nodded to then look down to turn her head a bit has the clock went off, she then looked to the theripist.
"Well that is all we have right now, let's go and schedule another appointment."
Sandra smiled to then get for them to go to the front desk to do just that to then turn to leave to go to her car to sit in it for a moment to look forward.
Why are you like this to Emily and me? What did we do that was so bad you treat us like this. I just want to understand you and be right by you but you don't seem to really care. Why?
Sandra signed to then place her key in the ignition to then turn it to go about to then go back to his mother's house to find Diego had came back to be to his mother's bed to be laying down to be asleep, for Sandra to be to the living room to play with her daughter when though she was exhausted.