her truth

looking for a new place

Laying down to the mattress in the garage, Sandra had her phone out to be eyeing cheap places to move when Diego was at work, Sandra made a face when she saw a few, they weren't really cheap, unfortunately, given there price range they couldn't only afford an apartment which was comical since Sandra lived in one and they should have just stayed there.
However, even though she looked at apartments a bit, Diego didn't want to move into one, he wanted a house or a duplex, with there financials though Sandra wasn't really seeing anything for them, getting frustrated she then placed her phone to the side to then get up to go to the kitchen has she felt hungry.
Sandra looked to the side has she went out to see Diego's family to the television and there phones to go to the kitchen to eye about, there wasn't anything that was made, she then looked about in the cabinets to not see anything either, she made a face to then go to the fridge to see nothing she liked and want she was wanting to eat, she then gave up to go to grab her card to turn about to then leave to walk to the store given no cars really worked and Diego had hers so he could go to work.
To the store, sandra bought what she could given it was a convenient store to then turn about to then walk slowly back, there wasn't really anything she could do or any place she could go, Sandra knew she could call her sisters but Sandra didn't want to be a burden on them.
Sandra chewed at her food to then go about slowly to then get back to her boyfriends house to then eye it to then go to a car that was to the drive way to sit to the back to place the bag to the side to look up at the stars to not be very happy with her life at the present moment, Sandra also didn't really know what to do.
Taking in a deep breathe Sandra hung her head to then place a hand to her stomach to caress.
What am I going to do? Your father doesn't want to live here, Im not working, we can't really afford anything.......I really just don't know what to do.
Sandra made a face to then get up to go about, to grab her bag to then go into the house to go straight to the garage. She didn't really want to stay to the living room with his family who were glued to the couch to be watching something in Spanish.
To the mattress, Sandra sat to be eating her food to be looking through her phones social media to make faces here and there, everyone who was to a relationship and to be having a baby has well looked so happy and yet Sandra felt so miserable, not with the pregnancy but with what was going about with her relationship with Diego and how he treated her, then his family and how they were, the fact she didn't have any money, which she knew it was her fault, given she felt very stupid for given up her job, but she didn't want to over do it. Didn't want to affect this pregnancy.
Sandra looked through these photos to grow envious to these people, she really wished she could be them, be in a great relationship, be financially stable, be in a stable environment.
Sandra then signed to place her phone to the side to eat the rest of the food in her mouth to then lay down to look over the garage ceiling with a face.
This.... Is all going to work out.... Some way.... Don't know how...... But I have to trust that it will...... Just have to keep the faith I guess.....I really do hope everything is going to be okay and everything will......
Sandra then turned to her side to place a hand under her cheek has she had a worried expression upon it.
What happens if we can't move? Will his mother kick us out? I still don't understand the mountain thing and why she got so mad that we didn't take enough pictures. I just don't understand. Maybe Diego heard wrong or something, it really doesn't make any sense..... Also doesn't make any sense when she kicked everyone out when we were all being quiet and watching television and Diego and I had to go to my father's while his siblings went to there friends house.
I don't really understand.
Sandra signed to then go to her back to eye up with a face, Diego and his family didn't really make logical sense sometimes and when she would question it, Diego would bring up that it's his Mexican culture and was making it sound like she was being too sensitive given she was pregnant and making her sound like she was losing her mind or something.
These were things Diego kept doing to Sandra mental state and it was driving her into frustrations.
Sandra then turned to get other side to dart her eyes over the wall to take in deep breathes has she felt her baby move also, she then placed a hand to her stomach to caress.
"Everything...... Hopefully will work itself soon.... Maybe your father needs to see you too finally grow up and help me.... Us a bit more..... Your father acts very childish....I wish hope this smoking and drinking problem he has will go away also....I..... Just want us to be a very happy family..... Don't want to have all of these problems......"
Sandra signed to then slowly close her eyes to fall asleep while caressing her stomach has a few tears went down her eyes, this was a very frequent and reoccurring thing for her. To go sleep crying.
Only if Sandra could know at this point, her life was only going to get harder going forth with Diego and his family.