her truth

any conversation goes no where

Has time went on, Sandras father health was up and down, he didn't take quite good care of himself, and Sandra tried to get him out to no avail, even the doctors told him the same but he was stubborn, Sandra started to talk to her therapist more about her life and what was going on.
Has her father was inside to be watching the girls has today his health was okay, she was to the car to be talking to the therapist with worry and woe about her life, and how it was getting worse and nothing was changing.
The therapist kept telling Sandra she needed to talk to Diego however that would make him upset and nothing would change at all.
Sandra to the car listened to the therapists advice to sign here and there, everything he had told her to do she tried over and over to no avail, Diego had a lot of control and anger problems, he didn't like how life and how he couldn't make a lot of money, Sandra didn't care about the money and when they would talk about that it would get Diego even more madder.
By the end of the phone call with her therapist, Sandra then sat in the car to eye over her townhouse to make a face. She didn't like to be there, didn't like to go inside, this was not a place of peace and love but a place of rape, anger, manipulation, sickness and worry, and among other things.
Sandra then placed her forehead to the steering wheel to take in deep breathes to shake a bit, Sandra started to have panic attacks and anxiety attacks and it was all due to Diego and how he treated her, there were times sandra tried to talk to him about it but he would laugh it off and reject that notion to say it was all in Sandra's head. Her own therapist even concluded it was him and how he treated her.
Sandra then took in calming breathes to then move back to eye over the house to have a hard face, this was not how she wanted her life and the life of her off spring to have.
She wanted a family, love and peace, this was not at all it.
Sandra signed to then get out of the car to then go in, to see the girls on technology to roll her eyes to go to her father to stand next to the couch.
"Dad....we talked about this, I want the girls to actually play, be kids."
Her father who had each girl to either side who was to his tablet to eye over her.
"They need to rest too Sandra, there okay."
Sandra had to take in a deep breathe, Sandra was the only person in her girls life, that didn't raise them through technology. Sometimes her mother wouldn't use it but most of the time she was now.
Sandra then turned to go clean the kitchen before Diego got home to then do the whole house to then go and get dinner ready, Sandra didn't want the fight. If there was any dishes to the sink, laundry not done, any clutter he would yell at Sandra even in front of her father who just stayed out of it, which bothered Sandra but she didn't want Diego's anger to afflict her father at all nor the girls, she took most of it all her self every single day.
Sandra cringed has she heard the front door open for the girls to then leave her father to run to there father, he would always have junk food and lots of candy with him.
Sandra signed to then move to the side to look to see him with candy this time to eye up to see her father in law who came in to get hugs to give chips to the leave, Sandra shook her head has she watched him leave to then eye over Diego who took off his shoes to then eye her
"Dinner done?"
"Almost."
Diego nodded to then turn to go upstairs, Sandra watched knowing what the was going to do, Sandra watched the girls go to the living room to enjoy the candy to then make a face has what the therapist said went through her mind.
Sandra then took in a deep breathe to go up the stairs to go to the bedroom too go to the bathroom to see Diego sitting on the toilet to be on his phone to be laughing to be smoking, Sandra then sat to the edge of the tub to eye over him.
"Can we.... Talk?"
Diego signed and hard.
"I'm busy "
"Diego, I would like to talk to you about....."
"Sandra, where are the girls?"
"There with my dad they are fine but I want to....."
"Sandra I've been working all day, I want my time. Go to the girls."
"Diego I really want to talk about...."
"Sandra, go down stairs, be with the girls. You have no idea how lucky you are. "
Sandra started to breathe and hard at what Diego said to the get up to shake her head to then leave the bathroom to go to her kids room to close the door to place her back to the wall to close her eyes to place a have hand over her mouth to scream into it, there were so many things she wanted to say to Diego and just couldn't, he never listened and made Sandra feel like she was a selfish brat. Sandra wanted to fix there marriage, fix the way he treating her, fix so many things but Diego never wanted to talk to her and just cared about his time, this was starting to really get to her.
Sandra started to have tears go and hard down her cheeks to then wipe them away she quick has she heard her girls trying to find her,  she then turned her head to eye them for Emily to look to her mother with concern.
"Mommy, what's wrong?"
Sandra took in a deep breathe has she eyed over her 5 year old then her youngest to grab then both for them to sit to eye her with concern.
"Ooh mommies just sad, you found me."
Emily and Sarah looked to her confused.
"What?" Sarah asked.
"We were playing hide and seek, didn't you hear me count, now it's your turn."
The two girls gasped to eye the other to then go and hide for Sandra to count for it to go shaly has she was hiding a lot of pain and hurt from her children.