her truth

nothing changed, again

After what happened, Diego did what he normally said to have it wind up to nothing. He said to Sandra he would go to counseling to never ever try. Worked picked up and he was doing that. Nothing had changed, every weekend they would be going to his mother's, for Diego to now drop off the girls and Sandra there, given they just had the one car again, Diego thought he was a mechanic however he could never keep anything running for a long time.
Diego never asked Sandra to go with him anymore has he told her he was fixing others cars for the money, Sandra still didn't understand where all the money was going, she never spent anything, it was all under Diego's control.
To one of the weekends at his mother's, Sandra was happy to be away from him and his negative attitude, they didn't do anything but fight in front of the girls, even though Sandra told him time and time again to not do that. However he never listened then he would make fun of Sandra, calling her too emotional.
Even though there was a slight culture and language barrier Sandra didn't mind to stay over his mother's while he went to go and do whatever he wanted, this gave Sandra time with family and the girls, it was a more of a happy time when he wasn't about.
Sandra also was trying to find a place for them and her father to live, but Sandra didn't know about that. Diego was not an easy guy to live with, Sandra started to think about her father and what he would have to go through, he was still semi young but his health was going down.
Sandra really didn't know what to do anymore, nothing her theripist suggested worked with Diego, he seemed to live in his own world and make things up from time to time. Sandra just wanted her life to go back before she met Diego sometimes and other times she wished Diego could be the guy she first fell for, but nothing was changing, Diego was not to do such a thing and Sandra couldn't understand why. He always talked to Sandra like she was a child, always was telling her what she was doing wrong and what she could be doing to be better and commenting on her weight, but if Sandra said anything like this to him, it would be hell.
Sandra really didn't understand why her life was turning out like this and why nothing seemed to be able to get fixed.
Sandra then came into the present to eye about to see Emily playing to the ground with her sister has she was trying to get her to move up on her tummy, Sandra couldn't help but to smile, her babies were the reason she lived and breathed. There smiles and happiness was hers also.
Sandra then got up to go to her children to then play with them.
Has time went, it started to get late, Diego eventually came back to be under the influence, Sandra didn't like that, it was also very disrespectful to his mother who didn't know this. However the times Sandra had told Diego to tell his mother about his problem he would threaten her with almost about anything, he really didn't want his mother to know his drug habits.
Laying down on the air mattress, Sandra was to her side to have her arms wrapped about herself, Diego was to the other side while Emily laid to the middle, his mother and step dad  took Sarah given she was just a little baby, for Sandra to go over her life has she always did late at night, she then moved up to see Diegos mother come out with Sarah.
"She's hungry."
Sandra nodded to gather Sarah to watch his mother go back into the room to then look down at Sarah to pull out her breast to then breast feed her to yawn, Sandra then turned her head to watch over Diego who was sound asleep, has he was always, he never ever helped with the children.
Sandra signed to then move back has she was very tired to then go to her side to lay Sarah down next to her sister who was to her back to be fast asleep, Sandra looked over Sarah to watch her suckling to smile and wide.
Sarah was so very cute, just like Emily, those two were just so beautiful and smart.
Sandra then slowly looked to Diego to sign.
She really didn't like the fact he was drunk and had been smoking, he really had a bad alcohol problem and smoking problem, sandra tried very hard to get him to go see a therapist or to go and get help with this problem but he would do what he always did, say he would to never ever help himself, even told Sandra to do it for him and she needed him to talk to these people not the other way around, or he would tell Sandra everyone else was the problem not him.
Sandra Shook her head, to then look back to Sarah to smile to then eye back and forth Emily and Sarah, those to were the reasons why Sandra was trying so hard to stay with Diego. Sandra did love him, but the way he treated her, Sandra knew in her heart he did not love her at all.
Soon Sarah stopped suckling for Sandra to move up to burp her to eye over Diegos mother's door, she may a face after Sarah burped to then move her back down, she wanted them all to sleep like a faculty, even though Sandra wasent happy with Diego.
Sandra then started to drift off after she closed her eyes to think here and there what she could be doing wrong and how to fix things not to understand there was nothing wrong with her, there was something very ill and wrong with Diego and the boy was never ever going to change.