her truth

running on automatic

Has time went on, Sandra started to get used to her life and only feeling happy when Diego was gone, Sandra in his absence tried to make it a good life for her girls and tried to keep them away from there problems has much has she could, there were times her father she mother helped with that, they didn't really defend Sandra when Diego would be an asshole to her but would get the girls away from the situation and for Sandra that was something she was very grateful for.
On another weekend, Sandra woke up to be so very tired given Diego kept her up late given she refused to have sex, Diego was not taking no has an answer, Sandra did keep trying to fight against having sex with Diego, given she didn't feel any real pleasure from it, she was forced to do it and it didn't feel good most of the time, Diego was to small for some of the positions they tried and Even when she would tell him it hurt he would just laugh.
Also there wasn't any love in it. Sandra felt she was being used for her body and she didn't really want to keep having sex with him. However fighting against it would cause things you be later and thus she wouldn't be able to sleep, the girls also didn't really sleep in there beds, Emily didn't like to be alone and then when she would wake up crying, so would Sarah, and that would cause more problems, Diego couldn't stand the girls to be crying and would cause him to be more angry and Sandra and yell at her.
That morning, Sandra got up to yawn to then look about, she then turned her head to look down at an asleep Diego to roll her eyes to then eye over her girls who were in the middle to be sleeping soundly, she then smiled to KISS them on there heads to then get up to go to the bathroom to relieve herself to then get dressed, she went downstairs to go to the couch to lay down to place her arms about herself to take in some deep breathes, she wanted some time to herself, Sandra never really was getting that, she was surrounded by family, her girls and her husband.
Sandra wish cleaned constantly but for Diego nothing was ever good enough, he had very high standards and she didn't know where that came from, when Sandra would go over to his mother's, the place was not anally clean so why did he need to be that way with her.
Sandra then took in a deep breathe to turn her head to lightly laugh, Sarah was there to be sucking her thumb to be eyeing over her, Sandra then gently grabbed Sarah to then turn to place her to the other side for them to cuddle.
Sarah was Sandras little cuddle bunny. Sarah kept sucking her thumb to fall back to sleep for Sandra to turn herself to see Emily.
"That's not fair!" She whined.
Sandra lightly laughed to then grab Emily gently to place her with them so she could cuddle both her children, only for a little bit, Sandra had to get up to make breakfast, is she didn't have any for Diego he would bitch and moan and make Sandra feel like shit.
Once it was done, Sandra turned her head to look to him to see he was dressed.
"Where are you going?"
"Going to work on a car by my mother's. Let's go "
Sandra took in a deep breathe.
"How about you take the girls and I can stay to clean the house?"
Diego rolled his eyes.
"Don't place all that on my mom. Let's go "
Sandra signed to then look down.
"How about you go and I take care of the girls here? My dad isn't feeling well so I want to stay close "
Diego rolled his eyes to go back to the door without saying good bye to the girls who were to the living room to be playing.
"Whatever then."
Sandra heard him leave to take in a very deep breathe to eye down to then fix a very healthy breakfast for the girls to place herself something to sit at the table to eye over them to have a face.
Why don't you ever want to take the girls? Why don't you ever say good bye to them? Why do you have to be this way with me and them? Why can't I ever get a break? I love my girls so very much but everyone needs a break from time to time, why don't I get that? When I ask for it or anything you have to be such an asshole!
Sandra placed her elbows to the table to place her hands to her neck to rub to groan to then look up to place on a fake smile to her children.
"What's wrong Mommy?" Emily asked.
Sarah looked to her sister to then eye her mother to have a strawberry in her mouth
"Nothing, Mommy is just tired."
"Poor Mommy."
Sandra couldn't help but to laugh to then get up with her unfinished food to place her plate to the sink to eye down. She really wished her car was working, Sandra really wish her father's car was working, Diego was playing with the cats again so Sandra couldn't leave.
Sandra turned to place her back to the counter to place a hand over her mouth to close her eyes to cry so silently her girls couldn't hear.
Sandras life was horrible has she was married to Diego and nothing was getting any better.
Sandra then went to the Landry room to place her hands to her eyes to cry a bit more to then move the tears away has she heard her girls knocking has they tried to find her.
"Okay okay.... Mommies coming...."
Sandra had to take a very deep breathe to make sure she wasn't crying anymore to then tend to her girls and her father to be filled with so much sadness.