her truth

meeting the family

About a week later after the club, Orrin invited Sandra to come and meet his family, Sandra was a bit nervous about it given she didn't really feel that much for Orrin but was pushing herself to do so.
In her room, Sandra looked herself over in her long mirror has she wore a long blue dress to still be feeling a bit weird.
Sandra shrugged to then go about to go to get cloest to then grab her blue heels to place them on to go back to the mirror to eye herself over.
Are these heels to much?
Sandra made a face to then go to her bed to sign here and there.
She really didn't know about this. Sandra wasn't getting any further deeper emotions for Orrin and it was making her feel very bad.
The unfortunate parts were, he was a bit to the hefty side and he was white.
Sandra didn't see people's skin color however has every one does she did have her preference which was Asian man and Mexicans.
Sandra shook her head has she started to think in that direction.
I'm so vain sometimes, Orrin treats you so very well and you are like this. Stop it!
Sandra got up to eye herself over the mirror to then go to her kitchen to grab her phone to text Orrin who then gave her an address.
Sandra texted him she was on her way to where she gathered a coat and her purse to then leave, she got gas first to then take the long trip to his mother's house.
Going in, there was a great smell going on, Sandra went in for Orrin to tell her he made then something to eat, this amazed Sandra, Diego never ever cooked.
Going in she sat on the couch for orrins mother to eye over her with smiles has Orrin was to the kitchen to complete the meal, Sandra and her talked a bit to where she told Orrin that she liked this girl and he was very lucky, he came in with the plates to have smiles to sit down next to her to nod.
"Yes I am."
Sandra looked to him with a long face to then eye the meal, her stomach did a little flip, she didn't quite understand why.
Sandra shook her head to then eat at the meal slowly, it tasted pretty good,burnt her and there but Sandra had made meals like that to and she never placed on any judgements.
Has they ate they talked and when they talked about work, Sandra told them she worked for a pizza company has a delivery driver and with help from her school she was going to try and become a producer in film.
His mother nodded to then have his brother then come in to start to talk to Sandra about another job, they took her to a computer for get to them apply.
Sitting back a bit later, Sandra liked the sense of actual family to this, they were all talking and not just sitting down in front of the television.
Diego's family spent more time on there technology then with the other which was a bit odd since they were Mexicans and in there culture it was suppose to be about family all the time.
Sandra then peered her eyes down has she started to compare the two and self reflect a bit. Orrins family, even though smaller, was more humble and sweet then Diego and his family, they all seemed to be about themselves yet with orrins family even though they just met Sandra they were really trying to help her out. She also started to think when Diego's mother's went to her to have Sandra stay away from her son, it was a odd conversation at the time but now Sandra seemed to understand it more, maybe it wasn't because Diego's mother's didn't like her maybe because his mother knew Diego was not going to be good for Sandra.
Has Sandra thought, Orrin turned his head to then look to Sandra to eye over her.
"Are you okay?"
Sandra lifted her head up to eye over him to nod.
"Actually.... I'm feeling a bit tired."
Which in truth Sandra was feeling a bit more tired, she couldn't really understand why.
Orrin nodded to then place his hand to hers to then lead her to her car for them to share in a brief kiss for him to help Sandra in for her to buckle herself to make a face has she then went back home to sign.
She was not feeling anything for Orrin and it was making herself feel very bad, Orrin was a breathe of fresh air after what she had to deal with and yet this is what was happening.
Sandra then went home to take off her heels to then go to her couch to lay to her side to then wrap her arms about to shake her head.
What is wrong with me? Why am I like this? Orrin is such a nice guy and I'm treating him like he garbage. I feel so bad...... He does not deserve this given everything that he has heard and seen.
Sandra then went to her back to place a hand to her forehead to rub to grit her teeth.
She thought about texting her sister's to get there advice on this but she knew they were busy with there lives and she didn't want to be a burden.
Sandra signed again to then place her hands to her stomach to keep eyeing up.
What am I going to do? Pushing myself to like someone that I don't, isn't fair to the person in question, they deserve so much better.
Another thing Sandra learned about Orrin was he was a virgin and she didn't know how to handle that either after everything she had heard about how virgins acted after they had sex.
Sandra felt she was like that given she couldn't stop thinking about Diego. She didn't want to do that to orrin especially since she wasn't really feeling anything towards him.
Sandra went back to her side to dart her eyes not knowing what to do next.