her truth

sad day

One day tripping over the dog chui, Sandra signed to then turn with Emily in her hand to look to him has he shook a bit for her to go to his level to pet.
"I'm sorry chui. I need to get this done before your human gets home."
Sandra then got up to go to the kitchen to start to clean, she wished she could place Emily down however she was a bit clingy lately, Sandra chalked it up to the fact she was pregnant again.
Sandra cleaned the whole kitchen and house by herself has Diego never ever helped her, to have Emily to her hip basically to accidently trip over chui here and there to watch him a bit, she didn't understand why he shook so much and didn't pee outside any more, it was starting to over whelm her given she was very much pregnant and had a three old attached to her hip to clean and cook every single day.
Later in the day, Sandra sat down to be watching Emily play to see chui to the corner with a face, she wasn't understanding this current behavior, was it because she was pregnant? Or that his father hit and kicked him at times? Sandra really didn't know.
Turning her head she watched Diego come in late for him to go straight to the kitchen to get something she made earlier to then go in to grab the remote that sat next to Sandra to turn the channel to ignore her and there baby.
Sandra took in a deep breathe.
"So.... We need to talk about chui."
Diego rolled his eyes.
"What do we need to talk about with him?"
"Well, he is always scared, shedding, barking, shaking, peeing and pooping in the house. I'm getting over whelmed with everything I was hoping for you to help me and...."
"No, we are just going to get rid of the dog."
Sandras eyes widened.
"What?"
"The dog is too much. Just get rid of him."
"Diego, this is your puppy and he is the father of the twin dogs over at your mother's. Why can't you just help?"
"I'm at work all day, just want to come home to a warm meal, not this shit, a clean house and a girlfriend who actually wants to have sex with me, but you got what you wanted right."
Sandras chin started to quiver for her to turn her head forward to place her hand to her extended stomach to be in a lost for words. She couldn't believe Diego said all that to her.
Diego signed to keep eating to not care about how Sandra was feeling to then pull out his phone to go to a website to then start to laugh. Sandra took in a very deep breathe to then go to Emily after she got off the futon to then go upstairs with her.
Sandra got them ready for bed to then lay down with Emily to her bed to watch Emily go slowly to sleep, for Sandra to then close her eyes to cry, this was a very normal thing for her to do and often given how cruel Diego was to her on a daily basis.
Within the next week, Diego made Sandra look for places to give up chui when though Sandra tried to talk him out of it to no avail. Sandra eventually found a good person for them all to be in his car for Sandra to be holding to chui to not try to cry, Diego was to his phone not to care at all about the dog and Sandra didn't know what to do, this was the dog he had in his previous relationship, he didn't want chui and neither did she given she was with another and had a kid with them. Sandra couldn't help but feel very sorry for chui here did not deserve this.
Sandra turned her head to sign has the woman came up, Diego then grabbed the dog to take him out for Sandra to watch him go to grab ahold of Emily who was in the back seat who wanted to be with her mom, Sandra held Emily close to watch this interaction to feel so very sad even though this wasn't her dog. Sandra didn't want to give chui away, he was a very good dog, Sandra just didn't know what to do at all about this situation.
Sandra signed has she watched Diego laugh to watch him come back to go to the passenger side.
"Okay let's go "
Sandra looked to him.
"Did we really have to do this? With help and maybe a doctor....."
"Sandra, you said it yourself, your over whelmed, now let's go to my mother's, she knows how to cook, you really need to learn Spanish from her and how she cooks to be the perfect woman for me." He laughed.
Sandra looked to Diego with anger to then sign to place Emily back to car seat to then go from the park that was near there house to then go to his mother's to be feeling a lot of different emotions at that time.
Inside, Sandra went to the room to then lay down to place her hand to her stomach to caress while Diegos family played with Emily not him..
What have I've done little one? This is not a great guy for him to be your father. Why does he have to put me down so much? Why does he have to make me feel this way? Why is he always mean to me? What have I ever done to him for him to act this way? I just don't understand.
Sandra curled herself up a bit to continue to caress her stomach has she felt alone, lost and empty. Sandra was stuck in a place she didn't want to be to be with a total jerk and asshole who only cared about himself and no one else at all, but given he was her children's father, what could she do?