her truth

doing everything for an ungrateful soul

Has weeks turned to months, Sandra lost a bit of herself every single day has she was with Diego to only be happy when she was left with there daughter and to be with her family. Being with Diego was a hit and miss most days. He sometimes was a great caring person the next he was mean and very hurtful, it didn't matter if it was in front of there daughter or not, but it was something that happened behind closed doors and was only better when they were in front of people.
Sandra started to live in fear of her boyfriend and his anger issues. These were things she didn't talk about with her therapist has she didn't understand Diego and was feeling ashamed, she started to think if she just did what he said things would get better however no matter what she did, he would start to put more on her, placing a laundry list of high expectations.
By the end of the week, Sandra had cleaned the whole house, helped Emily learn to walk and read to her to be feeling so very over whelmed but kept pushing forward, what she was dreading was the weekend, that was when he didn't go to work and was extremely lazy and didn't help her at all and would nip pick over everything she would do, it was annoying.
Turning about, Sandra heard a noise to then look down to smile and wide. Emily had walked to Sandra to have her arms about her leg to eye up to smile and wide to say mama.
Sandra cleaned her hands to then dry to live about to grab Emily to place to her hip to bounce about to eye to start to sing, they then turned for Sandra to suck in a deep breathe has Diego came in, Sandra never knew what type of way he was going to be after work.
Diego came in to then look to then to smile and wide to turn to close the door to then take off his shoes to go straight upstairs, Sandra watched him go to know what he was up to, to sign to roll her eyes to then turn with Emily to then proceed to get dinner done.
Sitting to the futon, the two ate while Sandra was to the ground to be watching over Emily who went to her toys to play with and coo.
Diego then got up for Sandra to eye after him to then look back to Emily.
"Let's go to my mother's."
Sandra looked back up at him.
"What?"
"I need to go fix a car. Yourll come with me and my mother can watch Emily."
"I can just stay here and you can go."
"No, get Emily ready and let's go. Don't keep Emily away from her grandmother."
Sandra rolled her eyes.
"That's not what I'm doing. I'm tired Diego, it's late and...."
"Then get up, get Emily ready and let's go to my mom's. Stop being selfish."
Sandra looked over Diego who turned to then go upstairs she signed and hard to then pick up Emily to place her to the car seat has it was a bit of a struggle, she didn't want to go either.
Finally going to his mom's, Sandra had to give Emily to his mother to then go with Diego to watch him fix a car to be yawning here and there has he drank and smoked illegal drugs with his friends to be laughing, he then went to her to eye.
"Want a hit?"
"I'm breast feeding."
"This doesn't do anything. Can help you relax."
"Diego..... No "
Diego rolled his eyes to go back to his friends.
Sandra signed and hard to then go into the car to sit to the passenger seat to shake her head, she didn't want to be there but with Emily.
Eventually Diego got into the car to drive them back with a face.
"You are so negative Sandra."
Sandra wrapped her arms about herself to then turn her head to look out the window.
"No I'm tired Diego, I did tell you this."
"You are just no fun anymore."
Sandra made a hard face has what Diego said was hurting her.
They went back to his mom's for Diego to sit in the car.
"I'm going to smoke more, you go in, were spending the night."
Sandra turned her head to look to Diego.
"Diego there is not enough room for...."
"I texted my mom, Emily will sleep with her and we can hit the couch, now go in since your so tired."
Sandra looked at Diego and hard to then get up to head out to then slam the door to then go to his mother's quietly, she then went to his mother's door to slowly open to eye in to make a long face, she saw his mom, step dad and Emily to the middle to be all sleeping, Sandra wanted that.
Sandra signed to then slowly close the door to then go to the living room to be to the long couch to be to her side to have a sullen face has warm tears were staining her cheeks.
Sandra then moved to get back to eye up to wipe them away to have her chin quiver.
She hated her life a lot. Sandra didn't know who to talk to about this, she didn't want to be a burden to anyone, didn't know where she could go with her daughter didn't know if any one could help her. Diego wasn't physically violent he was just an asshole who treated Sandra and Emily so very badly. So was that enough for Sandra to be able to leave him? She honestly didn't know.
Sandra then turned and quick to get other side to have her back to the living room to pretend to be asleep, she let out a breathe of relief when Diego went in to go straight to the other couch to then go to sleep.
Sandra wrapped her arms about herself to feel for that moment, safety.