her truth

my sister comes back and makes me think

After her grand father who passed away, Sandra had more talks with her father has he talked about his depression and suicide thoughts, to have to deal with her husband who made life so much harder, to have to deal with his family, and her own to only find life and peace when she was with her girls for things to start to get to be to much, Sandra also ended her time with her therapist has Diego said she was being selfish and she needed to be there more for the girls not to know he just didn't want her to talk to any one about his abusive behavior.
Sandra was starting to go a bit under with her depression, her anxiety and stress. Also being raped my Diego didn't help her at all, she never really wanted it, but it was a less of two evils when she would act like she enjoyed it, she even had to go to the hospital twice has Diego made her bled from anal, it was something he wanted her to do even though she didn't like it to where he would say oh you know you like it, the second time he wouldn't let her go alone and even laughed at her and given he was high he was trying to place his finger in when the doctor and nurse had left and she made something up given how could see tell them the truth given he was right there, after they left he was mad at her given she laughed at the suicidal question, the reason why she laughed was because Sandra was feeling that just a little because of her life with Diego, but him being there how could she ask for help..
Yelling at her the whole time, Sandra then went upstairs to be to her side to be on her phone to have a pain attack, she didn't know what it was at the time given she never really talked about it, after she was forced to go downstairs by Diego who made her feel bad for taking care of herself to then make dinner to have the girls lay with them given she did not want to get raped again, that night Sandra looked over her children who slept between them to have tears going down her face.
She couldn't understand why life was so cruel to her.
Sandra signed to close her eyes to go to sleep has a few more days went, Sandra was slowly starting to talk to her eldest sister kandra, they had a falling out due to the fact she kept asking her father for money which he didn't really have, he only made 2,500 a month through his pension and his SSI, and he paid rent where they lived and for Diego's now storage unit to house his car parts that his mother didn't want in her yard any more.
So Sandra got mad at her and stopped talking to her, but slowly she started to talk to her again and invite her to things given she did miss her older sister.
To Sarah's birthday party in June, kandra went to then start to widen her eyes at what she was seeing, Diego wouldn't really leave Sandra alone but in a bad way, he kept following her around and saying bad things about the party. Diego didn't like the parties Sandra was able to do for the girls even though he didn't do anything to help, his family didn't care and neither did hers and the children loved it.
After the party, Sandra and kandra were able to talk.
"Are you okay?"
Sandra sat to her car to then start to play with her fingers.
"I'm fine."
"You don't look like your fine. And what was up with Diego, why wouldn't he seem to leave you alone or help you clean up."
"That's.... Just how we are. I do everything. I'm a good house wife, just trying to make my husband happy."
Kandra narrowed her eyes.
"Uh huh..... And are you happy?"
Sandra started to take in deep breathes to then turn her head to then look out the window.
"Um...."
"Sandra, are you happy with that?"
Sandra gulped to then turn her head to give her sister a fake smile for her to widen her eyes, has her eldest sister was more observent to her youngest sisters pain.
"Thank you for coming to Sarah's party, I already know what we are doing for Emilies, we should be able to see each other then."
Sandra then got out to stay there to dart her eyes to not look to her sister.
"You have me worried over you Sandra, your not a 1950s house wife, you are a strong woman, I hope things get better for you."
Sandra forced her jaw to fight against tears to then slowly close the door to then wave her off to then have that question go through her mind.
"Am I happy?"
Sandra took in a deep breathe to then turn to go in the house to sign has they had an after party to where Diego was sitting to the chair not to help for Sandra to clean everything byherself, later has Diego was having sex with her body only, Sandra laid there to let him do what he wanted to then have her head turn to the side to have that question go through her mind.
Am I happy?
Sandra signed has Diego pulled out to cum on her stomach for Sandra to then get up to then leave to clean it off to then eye herself over the mirror.
Am I happy?
Sandra made a really hard face to then go back into the room to go to the dresser to then place in some clothes to unlock the door given she knew her daughter's would eventually wake up to crawl into bed with them, to then lay to her side to have her hands under her head to look out the window to keep asking that question again and again.
"Am I happy?"
Her sister kandra really gave Sandra a question she really couldn't answer and it started to make her really think, given for the last few months she was nothing but a zombie.
Sandra took in a deep breathe to close her eyes to then hear the door open to keep thinking the same thing over and over again.
Am I happy.... More importantly if I'm not happy, is this making my girls happy?
Sandra slowly opened her eyes has the girls moved about her to go and get settled for Sandra to turn to look over there happy smiles to start to really breathe in.
Are my girls happy when there mother is living through hell with there father?
Sandra then went to her back to place a have to her for head to really think and hard.