her truth

harder then I thought

To the hospital, Sandra was mentally going and out after her c section, the doctor gave Emily for her to hold, to where Sandra asked Diego to hold but he never did, Sandra feeling shaking in her arms, she turned to her side to place Emily down to keep her eyes to her to go in and out. Didn't help Sandra had to take pain medication given the c section.
Rolled about the hospital, Sandra tried and hard to stay mentally aware to keep her eyes to her baby has Diego was either to the side of the bed or behind it to be to his phone.
Eventually Sandra was placed to a room for a nurse to come in to grab Emily to place her to a place for her to sleep, for Sandra to then just fall under.
The stress, the anxiety and everything just got to be to much for Sandra, her body gave out.
The next few days Sandra was visited by all her family to see the baby and Diego's family came to see.
To one of the days Diego and Sandra argued a bit has Sandra wanted to make sure Emily had her last name not just Diego's, given they were not married. Sandra eventually won and she placed Diego's last name and hers.
Sandra watched Diego grab the paper to then give it to the nurse to then go to the little bed for him to then be to his phone, she looked over him to then turn her head to eye over Emily has she was to that place for her to then get up shakily to stumble to it to pick up Emily has she started to cry.
Sandra used to ask Diego for help to get Emily to give her to herself however he didn't really do that so Sandra has stopped trying.
Woddling back to the bed, Sandra laid to place Emily to her breast to then feed to smile.
Sandra then turned her head to look at Diego who was laying down to sleep to roll her eyes to then look back at her daughter.
Getting Emily full, Sandra then moved down to eye over her to then fall asleep.
The next few days at the hospital were very tiring for Sandra and irritating, didn't help Diego didn't really help her or there baby.
Going home, Sandra was so very tired and Diego didn't help not one bit, after this major event he wanted Sandra to clean the house, fed him 3 times a day, basically be his mother and take care of there child to not really help in any department.
Sandra eventually came down with a blanket around her has her sisters came to see the baby.
Going to the living room, Sandra then laid down to start to weep a bit, her two sisters eyed her.
"Sandra? What's going on?"
"Emily.... She's crying."
Her eldest sister who held Emily bobbed her up and down.
"That's what babies do."
Sandra started to cry.
"She always cries......ugh..... I'm so tired.....Diego never helps......I don't know if I can do this..... So tired...." Sandra wept.
Her two sisters looked to each other to then eye Sandra.
"Well, where is Diego now?"
"At work. He only took off a week of work. I've been all alone with Emily. I'm doing everything. This is to much."
"Sounds like it yes."
Sandra signed to then move up to eye over Emily to feel very bad. Sandra felt like a very bad mother. She was just so very tired.
"Maybe Sandra you need to get some help."
"Don't know how to get that. When Diego comes home he is very tired and doesn't really help."
"Emily is his child also. He needs to help."
Sandra shrugged to then get up to grab a few cookies her one sister brought to eat given Sandra really was wanting sweets, it was also difficult to eat anything at this point.
They all then looked to see Diego come in to then look at them to go in to eye over Sandra who then sat to the floor again.
"What area you doing?"
"Just tired. Your home early."
"Happens at my job."
Diego then turned to go to the kitchen to get something to eat to then go back, Sandra's sisters then jumped in to talk to him about what Sandra had told them, Diego sat to the futon to then chew at his food.
"We should go to my mother's, she can be able to help."
Sandra looked to Diego, she didn't want to do that. She wanted Diego and her to raise there child.
"Can't you just help more?"
"Sandra I work, you don't. Let's just go to my mother's, she can help you when you need it."
Sandra gritted her teeth and hard to then look forward to eye Emily who was asleep.
Would be best for our daughter? Should I do that? I really am tired and Diego is not doing anything to help me at all.
Sandra signed to then nod.
"Okay ."
Diego smiled to then keep eating at his food.
Her sisters looked to the other with faces.
Later that night Sandra packed for Diego herself and Emily for them to go to his mother's for Sandra to be sleeping to the couch to look down to eye Emily in her swaddle to a couch cushion to take in a very deep breathe.
Why are we here when there is no place to sleep and no where to have Emily be has you work all day long! This is so irritating!
Sandra then looked to the ceiling to wrap her arms about herself. She was getting very much mad at Diego and how he was treating her and there daughter. He didn't help do anything for them and pawned them on his mother.
Sandra made a very hard face has she was thinking about Diego and how badly her life was going down.
Shaking her head, Emily then started to cry, Sandra went straight to her to place to the side of the couch to then fed her to fall semi asleep with her daughter to not know what else to do.