her truth

hard pregnancy

A day of cleaning, Sandra moved about has her stomach started to really grow to sign and hard, she had Emily to one leg to be wrapped about, Sandra was trying to clean before Diego came home and the dog for some reason was so very scared, Sandra was able to go about to then make a very hard face, chui peed on the floor while she was trying to clean, Emily looked to her mother.
"Mommy play with me."
Sandra gritted her teeth to take in a deep breathe to then look to Emily.
"I am trying honey, I need to clean this house before daddy gets here and make dinner and now clean up after the dog while I really want to be able to sit down."
Sandra muttered the last for Emily not to hear to then go about in frustration, after the stomach flu she had things with Diego had gotten worse, he didn't do one damn thing, he never did to begin with but now he was gone all the time, never came home on time and the weekends Sandra was left to his mother's while he had his time, it wasn't really fair to Sandra.
Now once everything was done, Sandra sat to the ground to be playing with Emily to turn her head to then look over Diego who came in with a smile.
Sandra narrowed her eyes.
Glad you had a good day.
Sandra then looked to see chui Make his way to Diego to bark and wag his tail.
"How was work?"
Diego turned to take off his jacket and shoes.
"Okay. Is dinner done?"
Sandra rolled her eyes to then look to Emily.
Thank you for asking me if I'm having a good day.
"Yes it's all ready also the dog peed in the laundry room and...."
Sandra snapped her head to the side has she heard chui yelp in pain.
"Diego?"
Diego had turned to kick chui to his stomach.
"Bad dog! Why did you pee in the laundry room! Go and sit down!"
Sandra parted her lips.
"Diego you didn't have to do that, chui wouldn't remember that right now it happened hours ago."
"I don't care, he shouldn't be doing that."
Sandra then saw Diego go to the kitchen, she shook her head in disapproval to then look to Emily to keep playing with her.
What the hell is your problem? He is just a dog.
Sandra then looked up to see Diego with his plate come into the living room to sit to the futon to eye over it to then start to laugh.
Sandra raised an eye brow to make a hard face to go back to playing with Emily to be able to grab her up to go upstairs has she didn't have a good day at all.
Sandra looked back and he didn't even care that they left, she rolled her eyes to waddle up stairs to go to her room to lay Emily to the bed to play with her to be away from him for awhile even though he just got home, things seemed to be easier when he wasn't around.
Eventually the two laid down to have fallen asleep for Sandra to pop her eyes open to dart them, she turned her head to look at him.
"What are you doing?"
Diego had gone close to Sandra to then place his hard on to her back.
"You know what I'm doing."
Sandra rolled her eyes to turn her head back to look to the wall.
"Emily is asleep right here."
"And? She's still a baby, won't know what we are doing."
"Diego, I've told you time and time again we can not do this with Emily to the bed. I'm tired and need to sleep."
"I've been working all day I need to be inside you."
"Diego!"
"Sandra!" He copied with a laugh.
"God damnit!"
Sandra then grabbed ahold of Emily to move out from under Diego's arm to then get up with her extended stomach to go to the futon to be pissed.
Going to the futon she laid it down to lay Emily down for Diego to come down.
"Oh no, you can't sleep here, your pregnant."
Sandra looked to Diego.
"When do you care? I need to sleep I don't want to have sex."
"Seems you only want to have sex when you want to have a baby, you are very selfish."
Sandras eyes widened to look over Diego to then eye down..
"Can you please just go back to bed."
"Not without you and my baby."
Sandra took in a very deep breathe to then move about to lay to her side to wrap an arm about Emily.
"Sandra, you can't sleep on the futon."
Sandra closed her eyes.
Go away, go away go away go away!!
"Sandra!"
Sandra kept where she was. Diego signed to then turn to go upstairs stomping, Sandra moved closer to Emily to cry silently to have her chin quiver.
I'm so sorry Emily, I hope you didn't hear any of that. I'm just so sorry. I love you so very much.
Sandra then moved to her back to place a hand to her forehead to rub to continue to weep, she didn't like this life she was living. Diego treated her like shit and when he didn't he wanted to have sex, Sandra didn't know really what to do in this moment, she was pregnant with there second child and there first was so very young.
Sandra went to her side to wrap her arm about to take in deep breaths.
It'll get better.....it has to get better...... I'm just so sorry Emily, I'm so sorry for your sister or brother that is growing strong inside my womb, I love you two so very much, it just has to get better.
Little did Sandra know it was not going to get any better, has the years were going to roll things were going to get so much very worse.