her truth

pushed to a limit

The next month was extremely hard for Sandra, Diego did not help at all. He was always gone to work and the weekends he would take Sandra to his mother's to then leave her and there baby to go and fix cars, smoke and drink.
This was starting to irritate Sandra to no end, didn't help Diego didn't do anything at night, didn't help Sandra fed the baby even if she did try to breast pump, to be overly tired.
To a weekend to his mother's, Sandra sat to the edge of the bed to yawn has she was breast feeding Emily to then close her mouth to look to the back of the door to then eye down has Emily feel asleep to her drinking milk.
Sandra smiled to take her off, to then cradle her to get up to go to the living room, to place her to a swaddle to place to that couch cushion to eye over it, she didn't like that her daughter had to sleep there and she slept to a couch when she visited Diego's mother's, however Diego always complained they didn't have any money to try and get an air mattress and there was no where else for them to go and sleep.
Sandra then turned to go to the couch to then slowly fall asleep to be woken up every two hours to feed her daughter. Diego slept to the other couch to not wake up once.
In the morning, Sandra had Emily to her side to be feeding her to be going in and out of consciousness.
To the table across the way, Diego was eating breakfast made from his mother, for them to be talking, Diego's mother then cleared her throat.
"Sandra?"
Sandra took in a deep breathe to then loll her head to the side to then open her very tired eyes to then look them over.
"Yes?"
"Maybe you did eat oatmeal."
Sandra looked to his mother's a bit confused.
"What?"
"Maybe you wouldn't be so tired if you eat oatmeal."
Diego nodded.
"You should listen to my mom. She knows. Your always tired."
Sandra signed to be a bit irritated.
"I'm tired, because I'm up every 2 hours to breast feed while you don't help."
"My son is working and a lot. You need to take care of the baby. Oatmeal will help."
Sandras chin started to quiver has she felt she was being ganged up on.
They kept talking to her, for Sandra to feel so very bad and she just couldn't take it, eventually she got up to then get Emily and herself ready since she has an appointment to then get Emily in the car to then stop before she got inside to then text Diego .
Sandra: I can't do this anymore. After my appointment I am going to go to my sister's. I need time away from you and your mother. I don't think this relationship is working.
Sandra hit send to then go to the appointment for food, to be so very mad.
Taking to her one sister Lizzy, she was about to stay with her to have to deal with very hard and mean texts from Diego who said they were not over, she was ruining there family, didn't know why she was acting this way and so forth.
Reading them she shook her head to turn her phone off to then move on the mattress to look over her back who cooed and eyed over her.
Sandra made a face has she looked over her baby to then eye over the ceiling, she didn't know if what she was doing was the best thing, but she just couldn't handle Diego and his mother on her anymore.
Sandra took in a deep breathe to then fall asleep, the next morning Sandra saw fleas jumping about her daughter's clothes, Sandra couldn't stay to her one sisters place anymore, she then went to her other sister Brita who was staying with her mother in law since she was in transitions to buying a house, spending the day with her, she asked if she could stay.
Diego had came by to see Emily to make it a very emotional thing to then leave after he threatened Sandra a bit.
Brita told Sandra she had to ask her mother in law who said no.
Sandra went to a room while her sister took Emily to look to the ground to not know what to do. There was no where for her to go with her baby.
Signing she then got a text from Diego who said he would leave the town house and go stay at his mother's to still financially take care of there baby while Sandra can go and find a job.
Not having any other options, Sandra took him on it to then just go back.
To the living room, Sandra was playing with the baby to then sign and hard, Diego then came inside after he said he wouldn't to then go to be to his knees to look over Sandra.
"What.... Are we doing?"
"I'm taking care of Emily and you are suppose to be to your mom's "
"I know but Sandra, a baby needs it's father and mother. I don't know what is going on."
"Diego.... I'm tired. You are not pulling your weight. Our daughter needs more then you just working."
"I know."
Sandra turned her head to look over him.
"You know?"
"Yes I do. I know things are not at there best right now, but I can change."
Sandra made a hard face to then look to Emily who kicked about to coo.
"Sandra please..... Emily needs both of her parents. Don't do this to her."
Sandra then started to feel bad.
"We.... Need help.... Like a professional."
"Okay..... Can you find someone?"
Sandra nodded. Diego smiled to then place his mouth to Sandra's cheek to kiss to then go about to head upstairs to take a shower has Sandra was feeling so very bad with everything Diego just said, not to know it was just going to get worse.