Quinn O'Connell was the pretty girl in pink, the homecoming queen and all-around straight-A student. Most people saw her as uptight, narcissistic but most importantly... They saw her as a control freak with her perfect blonde hair and patronising sm...
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"Will you hold me?" the words slipped out of her mouth before she even had a chance to process what she was saying as she stood in the doorway of Carlisle's office and he whipped around from where he was looking at some books on the shelves. The second his eyes pinned on her face and her still rain-soaked body, he took the room in simple strides and pulled her into his arms. "I lied to you. Because you asked me after I read that article after I cried... You asked me if I was okay and I said yes... And I lied. But... I just need you to hold me" she shuddered out into his shoulder as he hugged her and Carlisle didn't question her as he held her calmly, hugging her into his chest because that was what she needed and he would always give her what she needed.
"I thought I saw him, Carlisle. I was standing in a crowd of people and I thought I saw him standing there. I would recognise him anywhere... And I thought it was him. And he's dead. Which means... I think I'm going crazy" she sobbed out and Carlisle held her close to him.
"I've got you, Quinn. I've always got you," he promised in a hushed voice that warmed her cold body. "I am taking the week off and I am going to be here, for you. It doesn't matter that it's just an article Quinn. You have every right to be upset my darling. And I will be here, to give you whatever you need until you're okay again. You're not crazy Quinn, you're just in pain and It's completely understandable" he reassured and she sighed softly, feeling exhausted despite her inability to sleep and as the two of them made their way back to their shared bedroom, all she wanted to do was lie down and at least pretend to sleep.
That night, Carlisle drew her a bath and accepted as she encouraged him to get in with her. Wrapping his arms around her, he rested his chin on her shoulder, kissing her neck once as he did so because he knew that she needed him to be calm and that was something that Carlisle was good at, even if he was utterly terrified. He needed her to be okay because he needed her in his life, forever. She was his always.
Quinn wouldn't let Carlisle out of her touch that night and he didn't ask her to, they were content in one another's company. If they could live with only one person for the rest of their lives, and never see anyone else, they would happily choose one another. It was each others company that they could never grow tired of and as she lay in his arms, accepting being the small spoon, she was soothed by his hand stroking through her hair and his soft words. Quinn didn't know what had changed so suddenly but Carlisle made her feel normal again.
"You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, Quinn. Since becoming a vampire, I've felt like a monster, no matter what I did to make myself feel more humane. But the second I met you, I felt complete. I feel so human because you give me butterflies with your smiles and make me feel like I want to blush with your compliments. If I was human, my heart would fly at a million miles a second when you walked into the room. It is your affection and your words that I can never grow tired of, even if I live for a thousand years more. I want to make you feel okay. I have always wanted to make you feel okay" he breathed.
"Carlisle, you make me feel okay," she reassured him, feeling his breath against her neck though it calmed her. "After everything that happened, I never felt okay. I was in a constant state of negative emotion in one form or another, you showed me what it felt like to be okay, to feel loved and to love in return. You make me feel beautiful. And I am trying, I am fighting every day to be okay, for you. Because I want you to have a wife that can smile for you every day and hug you, who can make love to you and kiss you. I want you to have everything you ever dreamt love would be because you are the most compassionate, caring, beautiful, smart and funny person I have ever met. When I look at you, the world just suddenly seems a little bit brighter, everything seems better when you are there Carlisle. And I am learning to feel better when you aren't there too because I know that you deserve a life away from me sometimes."
"Quinn, You are my world, you are my life, I would happily be at your side for every second of every day, for eternity. You make me content with what I am, you make me feel loved. You are the thing that I have always wanted, you don't have to change anything about yourself, not for me at least. You are perfect in my eyes. I want you to feel more than okay Quinn, I want you to be happy, every hour of every day. You deserve the world and I want to deliver that to you, I want to see your smile every day but I will be here even on the days when you can't bring a smile to your face, to help you fight through the pain. Know that no matter what, I am always yours. Forever."
