Dear God! I slapped my husband for just being truthful. What the hell is wrong with me? I've been pleading with him to be honest and truthful with me and now look. The one time he did, I slapped him hard.
If Tommy leaves me, I can't say I didn't deserve it. I call Gene and tell him and he called me an idiot. I am. I really need to make amends to my wonderful husband. He doesn't deserve all this.
Remembering I told him about the stripper I had gone to sleep with but didn't, I grab a bottle of wine and finish it while thinking about how to tell Tommy she called me out of the blue to invite me to another show. Do I go or do I not?
After drinking the entire bottle, I pick up another and tip it up. I have secrets too. More disastrous than Tommy's were. I told him I forgave him, but in truth, I can't. He cheated on me! I can't let that go! If he finds out I've been seeing someone on the side, he'll go back to self-harming or worse.
This is all my fault! I let myself get drunk one night, picked up someone in a bar and it turned into more than a one night stand. Fuck my life! I truly am an ass. Please please please never let Tommy find out as it will break his heart. I'm too cowardly to just break it off.
I AM AN IDIOT!!!!! Even Gene will call me out if he finds out. Eric will probably quit talking to me and Tommy? He'll feel like it's his fault and blame himself. I am such a cowardly fool.
By the time Tom gets home, I'm passed out on the bed. Empty bottles on the floor and a half full one spilling all over the bed.
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I'll Fight Hell to Hold You
FanfictionThis is a sequel to Hide Your Heart. In this sequel we will find out if Tommy can begin to feel worthy of himself and if Paul will have the patience to stay. The story pickss up in Tommy's 4th month of his second pregnancy. The triplets are now 5 mo...
