I'll Fight Hell to Hold You

Aftermath

"Paul, I didn't do that! I do remember being at the pub and drinking. I also remember blindly following him back to the hotel room, why I don't know. I guess I was thinking I could just sleep of the booze-induced feelings of nausea and stupidity. I also remember being on the bed and after that....nothing."

Tommy hung his head in shame. He knew he shouldn't have even had that much to drink much less leaving with anyone. Since he had though, and wound up pregnant by two men at the same time, he carried guilt daily. 

Paul could see the guilt Tommy still carried. He had tried many times to convince Tommy it didn't matter. He knew until Tommy could rid himself of the guilt, he would suffer.

"Tom, I know this is hard, but I need you to accept the fact it happened and try to move on." "Would it help if I told you what I found?"

"No, but I want to know anyway."

Paul sat down next to his spouse and began to tell him. When he was finished, Tommy was staring at him.

"I-I-I was n-n-naked? Was I alert or no?" "He....took what I was saving for you?"

"Yes, you were naked. I dressed you and took you to our room. No, you weren't very alert and we had already been intimate so I had already claimed you." "Baby, I already told you all of this." 

"I know but I blocked it out."

Paul suddenly realized what Tommy had been doing. In his mind if he didn't remember, it didn't happen. That would explain why the therapy didn't work.