I'll Fight Hell to Hold You

Phone Call(Paul)

I had just managed to calm down and start to be able to cope when the horrible call from Eric came through. Gene put it on speaker so I could hear. By the time Eric hung up, we were all in tears.

"G-G-Gene, my Tommy has gone under. What can I do?"

"Be there for him. You need to be there every step of the way. No matter what. I don't care if you are still working on marital problems. You need to be the bigger man and step up! Damn it Paul! You're just as guilty about cheating as he is! Tommy at least was truthful with you. You hid the fact." "Does he know about the European leg?"

I looked at the floor. "No." "I did tell him about the stripper." I told Gene about Tommy wanting to meet her. I knew Gene would take me in check but I told him everything. 

"You mean to tell me you still have her number?" "Are you a straight up idiot?"

"Apparently. " I mumbled. "Tommy told me yesterday he thinks I'm lying to him about loving him. When I told him I loved him no matter what his decision comes to, he told me he'd never ask for anything from me except my love for the girls. " "He thinks he's not worthy of love."

"First of all, get rid of the number. Second of all, march your ass to the hospital and get him help. Damnit Paul if you fuck this relationship up, I swear you deserve unhappiness."

I looked at Gene, tears rolling down my face. "Gene, the only way to get him help is to have Madyson taken at six months. I can't do that to Tom. He outright refused yesterday. If I do that, he'll really feel betrayed."

I could hear Gene sigh. "If you can't then I'll take full responsibility." "If we can get him medication, he might be able to start recovering." 

I screamed, "You're not going to take Madyson early!" I launched myself at him, expecting a full fight. To my surprise, Gene stepped back and took the punches. I wore myself out getting my rage out.

Finally I just stopped fighting and started crying.