I'll Fight Hell to Hold You

I Just Want to Hold You

After I finished making love to my husband, I told him that I wanted to hold him. I realize Tom's been through hell already so hopefully showing him love and kindness will help him start healing. Lord I wish I could get Tommy back to himself. The man I fell in love with, the man I married, the mother of my children. How dare that bastard of a therapist take away whatever happiness Tommy was beginning to find!!!!! How I hate him so much!!!!

I was upset with the whole Jaime thing but I accepted the fact Tommy still cared for him when the incident occurred. Of course I still don't like him but I don't want to kill him.

Anyway....Tommy is currently in my arms, his tortured soul at ease for a bit. I look into his gorgeous hazel eyes and see a glint of happiness. Leaning over I kiss him again, letting him know I'm not going anywhere. "Tom, if you want, I'll go get us some breakfast." 

"No, I'll go down. I'll shower and be down in a few. " "Join me?"

"Gladly!"

We take a shower together, me helping him and him just letting me. After awhile, we enter the nursery to get the girls. Hannah and Taylor are waiting for us. Rory is too, wanting us to take Mady who's asleep. I take Mady while Tommy picks up Rory. Somehow, she's afraid to climb on anything. 

"I wonder if she's always going to be shy." says Tommy. "Tay and Hannah certainly aren't."

I follow Tommy downstairs, Taylor in my left arm and Hannah in my right. Tommy has a sleeping Mady and Rory in his arms. Rory wants Mady to be with her at all times. I think it's adorable. I have 5 to take care of. Tommy at the moment is just like a child. He is so scared of everything and everybody at the moment. I can't really blame him. it's hard to trust when it's broken so much.