Magic Mirror #2

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Hi! I'm Ari and I am from England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 and THIS IS MY STORY.

It was a real struggle trying to think of how I would begin this but I think the best way would be to just let my fingers run free. Not think about it too much and let it come straight from the heart.

Growing up I had a hard time family wise, if broken family was a person my family could definitely be it. At a younger age I didn't realize how much this affected me mentally and how it would follow into my teenage years. I was just used to the fighting and not speaking to randomly getting back to normal and becoming a 'happy' family.

As a child I would be over the moon every time we'd go back to 'normal'. As I grew older it never really got better but I was so used to it that it didn't matter. From the age of 13 I started getting more involved in the fights because I now understood everything, they would unintentionally involve me but even then I didn't think anything of it.

Whenever these fights would happen they would get pretty big and intense and I would have to cope with my own feelings and also take care of my little sister. Finally, at 15 one particular fight made me think about everything. Everything. I don't know what was so different about this one but it broke me. I went into a depressive state and at this point I had two siblings to take care of, a sister and new baby brother. It was tough.

Throughout all this my coping mechanism was One Direction. I never thought I could ever love anyone as much as I loved those boys, they were everything to me. They were my safe place. Even after they disbanded I relied on them for my happiness. I had hope they would be back, but they never came back.

This is when I slowly started finding BTS. My journey with them was beginning. I was pretty late in joining the fandom but it's the best decision I have ever made. I quickly made them my safe place. It started with just wanting to know their names and now? Now they're my everything.

I once thought I would never love anyone as much as I loved One Direction but boy was I wrong. The love I have for these seven men is beyond this world, I will never be able to explain it. How can I love people that I only see through a screen? People that I may never meet? People that doesn't even know that I exist. How do they comfort me so much? I have never come across celebrities that think so much for their fans, that are so sincere and loving especially considering how big they have become.

ARMYs are everything to them and they never fail to show it. I think the biggest thing they've done for me throughout all this is help me love myself. They pulled me out from a dark space that I didn't know how to get out of. Even now when I'm down, when I can't take it anymore I just have to think about them. I have to remind myself of the message they send and the comfort they give and I will feel better. Every music video, every song, every interview, every run bts episode, every live, every loving word means the world to me. I can talk about them forever.

We may speak a different language but that won't stop us from all uniting as one. Now, as a 17 year old, I'm healing with the help from these 7 angels. My family is still the same but I'm realizing they don't define me. I can't let their problems be the reason I don't succeed. As much as I love my family and would die for them in a heart beat, I can't let them hold me down.

There's no word great enough to describe how they make me feel. I feel alive. And for this I will forever be grateful to them. I wish I could tell them this in person. I wish I could thank them.

To be honest I don't know if I should be saying all of this because it's so personal but if it means they may know about how thankful I am to them then so it be. I also want to thank ARMYs because you guys never fail to make me laugh. We are one huge, beautiful family.

This is my story with BTS.

To Jin, Yoongi, Hobi, Namjoon, Jiminie, Tae and Kookie. Please stay healthy and happy and don't skip meals. Get enough sleep and make sure to always love yourself. You have a whole ARMY right behind you every single step of the way.

We will love and support you through everything. Your happiness is what matters most to us. And finally, thank you.

Thank you for everything. Thank you for working so hard to make us happy. Thank you for helping my love myself. Thank you for loving us. You saved me. I love you.