Magic Mirror #2

My Heaven On Earth 🇰🇪

Hi! I'm Miriam and I am from Kenya 🇰🇪 and THIS IS MY STORY.

Back in 2017 I was a huge fan of the Ellen show so when my sister suggested we watch these seven Korean boys on the show I never rejected. I had this weird feeling that my life was about to change. I enjoyed watching the interview beyond my expectation. So that night I decided to look up these men that went by the name BTS. I watched some music videos and funny moments compilations and soon enough got addicted.

I always wondered why God brought them into my life at that moment. But it was only when I turned 13 a few months later that I found out. Being a teenager came with many complex stuff. My school system made me stressed, my family started having some problems, a lot of my relationships with people broke off all of a sudden and all this led to depression. I have never been an open person so I had no one to lean on. I often had mental breakdowns all night long. I fell ill so many times. All this happened in silence.

Listening to BTS' songs were my only remedy. At times I lost hope in life and never valued my body that I tried taking my life away. But BTS brought so much happiness in my life just through their voices. Every time I tried leaving this earth I would recall my favourite humans and give up. This went on for about a year and a half.

My self love journey soon began when my life suddenly seemed a bit lighter. I tried keeping those dangerous thoughts off my head by studying extra hard and watching BTS related videos. Run BTS really was my vitamin.

I hated my smile so much but they always managed to bring it out. It almost felt like they knew me and my problems.

My only happiness was them. Seven men all the way from the opposite side of the earth brought me incredulous joy and peace in my heart.

I still had mental breakdowns every time I felt I bottled up too much. But the suicidal thoughts were completely gone. Things seemed to get better slowly. Waking up in the morning became a treasure and not a misery. Because I knew they were there for me. It also felt like I had another family. One that I was more comfortable with. ARMY's were so nice to each other almost like we knew each other personally.

I'll tun 16 in two months and I can say that I have totally healed from my mental wound. It was a tough and hard journey but I managed through because of the 7 men that I discovered before falling into that dark ditch.

I can never be more thankful to God for bringing those angels in my life.

I can for sure say I grew up into a strong person. I'm still growing and I know I might have even more harder situations layer on in life. But I am assured of light at the end of the tunnel since I know what brings out the best in me, Bangtan Sonyeondan.

They are my inspiration, my medicine, my universe and my whole life. I feel like I owe them a lot for helping me to value and cherish myself. My body and my mental health are all important to me. But I would have never known that if I didn't know BTS existed.

I feel lucky to be an army and to even be alive at the same time as them. It feels amazing to have known them for all these years almost feels like I grew up with them. I love them with all my heart. I really wish I could meet them and thank them in real life. But till then I will always cherish them in my heart. Proudly an ARMY. Forever an ARMY.