Past Friends

Part 25: Still Cold

You weren't sure if you should ask Loki to stay the night, worried he'd take it the wrong way. You let out all of these suppressed feelings and although you were feeling better you were still overwhelmed. You didn't want him to go, he helped take away your pain and you feared that if he left now it would just hurt all over again. You knew that was selfish, Loki had his own life and problems to worry about but the fear wouldn't go away. At the same time you were worried that he'd mistake you asking him to stay as meaning you wanted to have sex. You didn't even know if he liked you that way, and what if he did? You didn't want to hurt his feelings by making him think you want to be intimate with him then turning him down two seconds later. You weren't ready to have sex, I mean you've never even kissed anyone before. It's not that you were a prude or anything you knew what was out there but seeing as you had never done anything before you were nervous to try. You weren't even sure how to transition into a conversation like that. You didn't want to ask him right out of the blue but ease into it. Somehow after a bit of small talk ask him to stay and possibly cuddle because you still needed some support. Yeah, like that would ever happen.

Loki on the other hand needed to find an opportunity to leave, any opportunity. The longer he stayed the more is resolved began to crumbled. He knew that if he stayed any longer he wouldn't be able to leave. He knew it would be weird if out of the blue he just got up and left, you might have questions or worry something was wrong. He knew as soon as you started asking he wouldn't be able to lie to you, and he knew that would be a no win scenario.

After finishing the pot of tea you get up to go to the bathroom and Loki used it as his chance to leave. You wish him good night but before he leaves you try to ask him if he could stay but you lose your nerve and end up mumbling to yourself. Loki asks standing in the doorway if everything's alright and you tell him it's fine and that you're just super tired.

Despite how tired you were it took you some time to fall asleep, as old memories once again make their way through your mind. They didn't feel as bad as before but you still fell asleep with tears rolling down your cheeks.

You wake up around 10am to a knock at your door, it's Tony. You tell him you'll be down in a few minutes, after you get dressed. While getting ready you think about the dream you had last night; it was little kid you, about 10 or so sick in bed while the two boys from your other dreams were taking care of you. You find it weird that they looked the same age while yours fluctuated from dream to dream. You didn't linger on that thought too long though, considering dreams were often weird and didn't make sense. There was a feeling you couldn't shake however, staring down at your hand you swear you could feel when the dark haired boy held your hand. You briefly think about all the other dreams you had while getting ready, you weren't sure what you were going to do today but now you had several ideas.

You walk downstairs wearing your high tops, a pair of distressed boyfriend jeans, a v-neck black long sleeve shirt with thumb holes, a red leather jacket like the one Michael Jackson wore in "Beat it", and your favourite part of the outfit; your cute green frog socks. They didn't go with what you were wearing but you didn't care, you were sad you could barely see them though. You carry the tray with the tea stuff from last night into the kitchen planning to wash up before doing anything else.

You put the last washed dish on the drying rack when suddenly your vision blurs for a moment and you almost lose your balance. You stumbled back catching yourself on the counter behind you. You take a deep breath wondering what just happened. You then remembered that you haven't actually eaten anything since lunchtime yesterday. "That must be it" you thought heading over to the fridge to get something to eat.

You make your way into the main area eating a slice of cold leftover pizza, surprised Thor, Peter or Pietro didn't eat it all. Tony who was chatting with Steve and Natasha calls you over to talk. You ask Tony what's up and he hands you a small red box with a gold bow on top. He tells you it's an apology gift for giving you a hard time yesterday. You told him it's okay, he was worried which you appreciated, so there was no need for a gift. He told you he's not letting you give it back, so you roll your eyes giving in and open the present, it was a beautiful necklace. The chain was made of Platinum, simple in design but reinforced so it was very unlikely to break. The pendant was a mini version of one of Tony's Arch Reactors, it was glowing and everything. It also had the Avengers' trademark 'A' design in Platinum across the pendant, and you loved it. You repeatedly thank Tony as you put it on, you then hug him as you tell him you'll never take it off.

At that moment Thor returns through an Asgard Portal, you didn't even know he was off-world. You call out to him from inside and then go out to greet him. You rush over asking how he was but before you can finish he picks you up and spins you around giving you a hug. You don't know why Thor was so excited to see you, he wasn't even gone a whole 24hrs. You ask Thor to put you down but he's in a very good and playful mood so he tells you no. You give him an angry look which he finds adorable so he relents and puts you down. As he's putting you down he notices your necklace and asks you about it. You tell him it's from Tony, an apology gift for the fight from yesterday. He takes a closer look noticing that it's the Avengers 'A' on the pendant. He tells you it's lovely before excusing himself to go talk to Loki, there was something important they needed to discuss. You wave goodbye before returning to the others, there was something you needed to tell them.

You inform them you were planning on going into the city to pick up a few things. Assuming there wasn't anything else scheduled for today, you asked if any of them wanted to go with you. Tony and Steve were busy but Natasha said she was free, it turns out Wanda was free too. So you, Wanda, and Natasha hoped into a car and drove off to have a girls' day.