Dance Through Trauma

September 3, 2021

I forgot to mention my mother's court appointment, which was scheduled for yesterday. So, my mom was told that the court appointment date was automatically made, and it wasn't completely processed in the court system, so the court will send my mom something in the mail with the new court appointment date. My mom really wanted it to be yesterday, so she could put that away, and move out of the state whenever we want. Hopefully, it's a lot sooner with no problems on the day that my mom has the court appointment. Other than that update, I have something about the six missing fishermen (including my cousin). It has been confirmed that a body found a few hours away from Acapulco (south) is one of the six missing fishermen who went by the nickname "Papalotito." Both of my parents personally knew the dead man that was found because he was a childhood friend, so the news was sad to hear for them. There are now five missing fishermen, but I believe that they will all be found soon whether with life or not. I hope Efrain, my cousin, is alive, so that we can text more on Facebook. I actually thought about having a text conversation with him weeks ago, but it never happened. The last time we texted was in December of 2020. It would be nice to get to know him more, but I'll have to wait to hear about him. I have seen more deaths this year than ever in my life (deaths of family members and family-friends). My own death doesn't scare me nor sadden me, but the loss of someone does sadden me depending on how much I knew about them. However, I do understand and accept that death is something that everyone will experience someday, and I am not afraid of a loved one of mine being taken away by death. What's sad is that they are gone, and what can be a much worse pain is if a loved one dies in a tragic way like being shot to death or burned to death. However, I would still accept whatever happens to any of my loved ones because my memories with them and the things that they've created will be honored in a way. They will never be there physically if they are dead, but their spirit will always live on through memories and creations. So, I think I will be ready to cope with the loss of a very close person like any of my parents or siblings. I'm dealing with the knowledge of the amount of losses on a healthy level, so I'm fine. It's something that I never dealt with so far in my nineteen years of life. I just hope that everyone in my family will get through so much grief from the unfortunate losses, so that we continue to live happily while keeping the memories of our loved ones.

- September 3, 2021