Dance Through Trauma

July 3, 2022

Ever since I believed in God, Christ, and the Holy Spirit, I have been figuring out my beliefs surrounding them. I'm technically a Christian, but I have some beliefs that not many Christians will agree with. I believe God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit are one; GOD. I believe Jesus came to the world to save humanity from evil and that he came back to life. I believe in the stories in the Bible, but somewhat literally and metaphorically depending on how scientifically accurate the stories are. The Bible, from my view, was written by men who had a connection with God, but that they misunderstood and misinterpreted some information from God like calling him jealous or angry in the Bible. Like with the great flood, I don't believe God exactly did it like people believe it. I believe God only does good and Satan does bad. God is the good force and Satan is the bad force, but in between them, there's something spiritual that separates them called the moral law. I believe the flood was caused by the heavy amount of evil energy in the world at the time. Where there's bad, bad follows, and a great flood is something bad that took over the world, which would cause drowning. This was a work of satan. Satan to me isn't exactly this evil man in hell who is trying to cause evil everyday. The idea of bad is Satan himself. I believe God and Satan are entities that have no physical form but rather something spiritual that we can not fully comprehend. God is the almighty and the only true God because he's the origin of all things including evil. Evil was born out of good, which is why God, the good, is the almighty and only God. My definition of a God is an entity that is above all. A God is the origin of all things. There can not be 2 gods or more, so Satan is not a God, he is just an entity or an energy force created out of God. Now why would God create evil? Well, he didn't exactly create it. It came out of him, yes, but evil evolved into its own like a zombie cell, which was once a cell of life. Does that make sense? I hope so. My version of God is actually good unlike many other versions of God. Good is the origin of all. The idea of good, which is God, has a lot to its definition. Good isn't just about what's moral. There's more to good than that like creation. My definition of good is long and will never be 100% understood by humankind because only those who are pure like God or the angels in heaven can understand good 100%. God isn't a human-like figure in the sky watching over us with strict laws; God is this good spiritual/energy force in our universe. If you feel good, that is God right there. God sees all and I don't know how to put this into words exactly but God is everywhere like the air. When you feel good or sense good energy, that is the presence of God right there. So, if God is good and everywhere, wouldn't that mean good would be everywhere then, which isn't true? Well, to answer that, God isn't just good. God is an entity with a mind like ours, but with the highest comprehension there is. Imagine God as a human being. Good would be his heart, and intellectuality, comprehension and all things that make up a mind that is aware, is his brain. There are parts that make up God, so he isn't just good. He's good, aware, alive, omnipresent, creational, and powerful. Asking myself this, if God is good, then that wouldn't make sense with how the apocalypse will happen as good will have a war against evil because being good means not to fight. Good can not be defeated because it is the highest power of all. One single human being on the Earth can't destroy the entire planet, and everything that exists is equivalent to that one single human being I'm talking about. It's impossible to destroy God when he is the origin of all. In the apocalypse, evil will try to destroy God but they will fail as it is impossible. God isn't going to fight by shooting lightning strikes or something against Satan; he just simply can't be destroyed, and that will destroy Satan himself. Satan will destroy himself. See what I mean now? And with sins, I don't believe sins are laws set by God. A sin in my definition is something immoral or something that emits negative energy, and negative energy is of Satan. The Ten Commandments in the Bible aren't rules God wants us to follow; they are statements that if you choose to follow them, you will be much closer to God, who is good because good is literally God. Even non-believers follow God without realizing it because the idea of good is God, well his heart. The things listed as sins aren't rules that we must follow but rather things we can choose to follow if we want to live a good life and join God in heaven. I believe that as long as you're good at heart and that you have Jesus cleanse your spirit like the shower head cleaning the dirt off of one's body, then you'll be in heaven in the afterlife and live a good life on this earth while you're alive. Jesus is God himself but in human form. The idea of forgiveness and repentance is Jesus himself. Jesus came to the earth to die for our evil that we call sins. There had to be Jesus because without him, how can we cleanse our spirits? That's like never taking a shower and being dirty. The longer you don't shower, the dirtier you get. So, Jesus had to be there. Jesus was already in the world before he came to the earth because the idea of forgiveness and repentance is Jesus himself. God can not exist without Jesus. Good can not exist without the idea of forgiveness and repentance. How can one be good if they're not aware of their wrongs? Anyone can do good things, but without forgiveness and repentance, there can not be guilt for the bad you do, and feeling guilt for doing bad in human terms is of good. A person who is good truly desires to be good and feels forgiveness, repentance, and healthy guilt if they commit acts of evil nature. This only applies to humankind because humans are not on the same level of holiness as God. God himself doesn't need forgiveness or repentance because he is perfect. He created Jesus even before humanity came to existence, so that we could have a pathway to good, who is God himself. It's impossible for people to be good without feeling bad for bad things that we do. There is so much more to my beliefs but I don't want to write out too much. I can easily make my own belief system into a book. So, to summarize everything, I believe God is the idea of good, the origin of all things, and Jesus is the idea of forgiveness, repentance, and healthy guilt, the pathway for all intelligent beings in the universe. I believe Jesus came to every world out there in the physical form of whatever each alien species out there looks like. Non-believers already follow God and Jesus because the idea of good and forgiveness is God and Jesus. I believe God and Jesus are one. I believe God is an entity no human will ever understand completely because it is beyond our comprehension. I don't believe God gets angry or feels any negative emotion because it is impossible for good, which is God, to have any negative energy within it. I believe Jesus judges people after they die because that is part of the purpose of Jesus. Without judgement, there can not be good. Forgiveness, repentance, and healthy guilt make up justice. God isn't an angry entity in the sky watching us all the time to follow laws; he is the origin of all things, and the origin of all is good, and good is God. What is considered a sin is like a handful of mud on one's spiritual body that will be cleansed by Jesus whether you believe in him or not but only if you feel repentance, healthy guilt, and forgiveness. Those who do not feel that are truly bad at heart and are living life in evil energy, which will also lead them to hell; the home of evil. Hell and heaven are both spiritual realms to me. They're like different dimensions that can not be seen by humans. There is so much more, but I don't have much time to type it all out, but my version of God is a loving, good God that isn't the prideful, strict entity that many Christians follow. God is good and anyone can choose to follow him. I choose to follow God. Some things may not make sense to the reader nor to myself, but this is what I believe in. A much shorter summary of this would be that I believe in God, Jesus, and the holy spirit, and that they are one. God is good and good is God, so he can not get angry or jealous or anything. I don't believe he was angry at humanity back that led him to create the great flood or to destroy the two famous cities of the Bible. God to me is the light. God is actually good from my eyes. He's not someone who angrily wants me to follow rules; he is just good. We have free-will, and with that power, I choose to follow good, which is God, and I love good, so I love God!

- July 3, 2022