Dance Through Trauma

November 13, 2021

Yesterday, my mother's boyfriend and my three little siblings were in a car accident due to a deer that decided to go on the road. Everyone (other than the deer) were luckily unharmed. My mother texted me about the news, and said that she was worried because her boyfriend wasn't answering her calls. Everything turned out okay though. The car is damaged in the front, so that needs to be fixed. I want all of us to go to Georgia in December, so that car better get to work by next month. And wow, this year is about to end. I have so many plans for next year, and it's going to be a big year in my life. There's another plan that I don't think I've ever mentioned in this book, and that plan is about a new haircut for next year. I want to cut my hair short instead of my one-sided long hair. I want to start the new year with a new look. I think I will cut my hair by myself because I don't want any money spent at a hair salon. I want to cut my hair myself especially because I don't want anyone else to cut my hair. I've gotten the wrong haircuts in the past, so I only trust myself to cut my hair. Plus, I want a hairstyle that hides my widow's peak or makes me look better with a widow's peak because I don't like how it looks on me. I look a bit bald with a widow's peak, which can be so annoying. Other than the hair stuff, I want to make exercise a habit. I want to do it everyday to give myself a boost of energy daily because everytime I exercise, my mood boosts up. The other day, my head felt foggy and very off, so I decided to do some exercises, and the result was rewarding because I felt more energetic for the rest of the day. Exercise really does help with mental health, so I want to make it a habit. I can't believe that things are finally getting so much better for my life because mental illness always seemed like something that was going to stick with me forever. 

- November 13, 2021