I quit my job. I texted my manager about quitting and my reason why, and she kindly took care of it for me. I felt bad for leaving that job but I couldn't stay there anymore. My last day at that workplace, my co-worker was angry with me and the customers were rude. I got an order wrong, and the customer was angry about it. I'm never taking a job that requires communication with people ever again. I posted about how I felt about people assuming that others are just dumb or lazy if they don't communicate correctly or act out as normal as a neurotypical. I posted it on Facebook in a group with 5,000 people in it that are in my town, and I got over 100 likes and many comments on my post, which made me happy knowing that there are people nearby who understand me. I had a very bad sensory overload on my last day of work, so I had to quit the job because it's not something I want to do anymore if I'm going to experience sensory overloads. They are terrible, and I rather die from hunger than work at a place that triggers my sensory issues. I really liked making pizzas and cleaning around honestly, but the job requires communication, and I'm not good at that. So many customers are rude when it comes to how I speak, and they get angry. I can't deal with people like that anymore and I'm exhausted from even trying to communicate because I'm a person that doesn't talk at all. I'm going to try to get another job that requires zero communication. I'll also wait for the day that I can go to Springfield to go to the autism center that my little brother went to, so that I can apply for health insurance, and then I can schedule an appointment to get on track towards an autism diagnosis. If I do well with a job that requires no people and everything turns out fine for me, then I will stick with that job. If not, then I will have to apply for SSI again, and this time, I'll have a lawyer. I need my mother to help me or someone else to help me though because the process is frustrating. I'm worried that tonight I'm doing nothing much, and I feel the need to do something about my life because I'm losing my mind.
- February 17, 2022
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No FicciónA diary of an autistic young adult who suffers from PTSD as a result of school bullying. Read about my deep inner thoughts from my conscious and subconscious, and how I am dealing with PTSD as an autistic person. (Book will be finished in a few year...
