Homelander sat down next to me and sighed.
"How can you be so calm?" He asked quietly. "I mean, you don't even seem to care about any of this." He added.
"I can't go around letting peoples eardrums explode just because they have a different opinion." I said then thought about it, "I guess I could, but then again, aren't we supposed to be the good guys?" I questioned.
Homelander nodded thoughtfully. "I remember thinking that. But it seems everything has gone bad and been turned into some way of making profit.
I mean... I hope it wasn't always like this, but I honestly can't remember."
We sat in silence, but after a little while, there was commotion from down the hall.
"I don't want to do this anymore, y/n." He whispered. "But it's all I can do."
"We'll figure it out. I'm sure of it, John." I whispered back to him.
Together, we walked back to our apartment and sat on the couch, and held onto each other.
Every now and then, there would be a knock on the door, or one of our phones buzzed, maybe even both, but I didn't care. I tried to get rid of the noise in my head, but the static replacing my thoughts was even worse.
"How can you endure the noise for so long?" I finally asked, holding my head in my hands.
"What do you mean?" He said slowly.
"The thoughts, the voices, the static. Whatever you want to call the never-ending buzzing in your head." I replied, irritated.
"When I don't think. There's silence." He replied.
"Silence?" I asked, and he nodded. "But there's always noise in the world around us. There's always thoughts or replays of discussions and interactions. Always. When is there silence?" I asked, exhausted.
"Close your eyes." John requested. "Now, concentrate on my voice. Don't visualize me or the things that I say. Not even the room we're in. Just the sound that you hear." He said, and I tried. Then, after a little bit, he whispered. "That's silence."
"Silence." I repeated softly.
I must've fallen asleep because when I opened my eyes, the sun had gone down. John was snorring next to me on the couch.
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Jealousy Isn't A Good Look On You
FanfictionI do not own any of the characters. Y/n are a supe. But not a famous one, that didn't work out. Now you are one of the sevens PAs. Maybe, briefly The Deep will fight for you. But you know... its Homelander. It always will be.
