Poisonous Blood | Jenlisa

Chapter 93 (Supposedly)

Hello, everyone! I was missing for....I don't know for how long anymore. Maybe, a month? Hehehe.

I am so sorry to you all! I actually just had my prelims two weeks ago and boy, was it hard! Then, we'll have our midterms next month. So much work for me, huhu.

Anyway, I would vent up here about what happened for the last month.

Exactly last month, Saturday, my friends planned a night out. One of my friends who was living with me, invited them at lunch and you guessed right. She was also invited because we all had lunch that time, three small circles of friends.

That night, she learned that one of our friends has a crush on her, a girl, to clarify. That girl wasn't actually the one who said it. It was actually the one who planned the night and that girl, that I was talking about who was in great dilemma that night, was the was first I told about what I've been experiencing around the girl who she was crushing on.

So basically, she really wasn't crushing on that girl before I told her about my situation. In her stupidity, she said, she observed the girl after I told her. Then, boom, she had a crush.

She was convinced that time that I was also crushing on the girl that's why she observed her. Hahahaha. She was really funny when she told me about it after she found out that our friend told the girl that she was having a crush on her.

I didn't really feel jealous that night because weirdly, I felt that something like an opportunity opened between the two of us. Like a sense of comfortableness around each other which was caused by that event. It was funny, really.

I actually felt elated the last whole month. I didn't really know what happened because it felt like it happened in a snap. It started two days after, Monday, I had a dream and it confirmed that I was really having a crush on the girl but just to the point of admiration, nothing more save for the moments that I felt slightly jealous because that friend of mine still felt comfortable around our crush.

She could talk to her freely and like, rest her arm on her shoulder, though it was slightly awkward for them at first. I guess it was because I'm an introvert and yes, I'm blaming it for my being a coward.

BUT! A BIG BUT RIGHT THERE! HAHAHA!

Started from then, especially Saturdays, we would walk together toward our classroom side by side and of course with our friends around us. I might be delusional at some moments when I thought that she was waiting for me to come back at her side when I was slightly getting behind and always feeling teased with her actions.

These moments were all on different Saturdays, okay? Just so you know, because if they happened on the same day, I was probably dead by now, alright? Good.

Okay so, one time, I brought a hat because we were going to our field for our subject and it was a hot day. I let it be borrowed by my friend and then my friend gave it to her. When she was done with it, she gave it to me and I was actually attempting to get it from her hands but what she did got me frozen while she did it. Well, she just have to put it on my head herself, so how should I act?

We were actually not really close. We were actually like in between an acquaintance and a friend, so why would she? My heart literally pounded at that moment.

Another time was when we got into a situation and I didn't know what was happening because my classmate and I were out to get some papers. When we got there, they were in a semi-circle in front of an unknown man and she was the first I saw so I went beside her and asked her about it.

In the middle of the situation, she faced me and shocked me when she brought her face close to me to whisper in my ears, three times she did that, people! And her eyes were daring at those moments like hell, if I didn't know better I would think that she figured out my crush on her first before I did.

Another one was when we were at lunch at some resto and we occupied a long table. We were sitting at one side but a friend was in between us. We were talking and telling stories and logical games. When we went to the topic of children stories, she faced me because I was clueless at some moments and I didn't know what they were talking about. The friend in between us was hunched forward so we were really face to face (and just so you know, she wasn't the friend that was crushing on her too. She was actually the second one to know my crush on her before I did. I guess I was actually so obvious about it, then?).

Okay, so what happened is that, she was telling a story I didn't know and I was shocked when she leaned forward. I was quick to retract and while I did, she was looking at me! In actuality, she was going to whisper in the ear of the friend who was in between us but did she have to look at me for two seconds while doing so? I was actually dumbfounded that time, I didn't know how to react to that!

I was literally frozen at those moments.

But the most relaxing moment we had was when we went to a park with our group of friends and talked about the small plants that are good for indoors. For design and all that. We walked side by side the whole time, and that was literally the most at peace moment I had with her because most of the time, I was hyperventilating, if not almost having a heart attack. HAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway, I think this is so much for an author's note or a snippet of my life hahaha. I'm actually thinking about converting these moments into a story. Based on my true experiences and stupidity, hahahaha. I would just have to decide who would play who and when would I do it, hehe.

Okay, I decided that this would be a separate part of the chapter. I'm so sorry. Tell me what you think because I need some pieces of advice for this. I'm new to this whole thing because this was the first time that I was crushing hard on a girl, huhuhu.

The update will be posted soon, sayonara!