道罗邪皇子 (邪神之道 B5)

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"..."

Facing forward the demonic self can feel Die Fei's eyes being trained on his back.

[...]

As silence continues to loom in the air the demonic self gradually realizes that it has become difficult for him to open his mouth and speak for numerous topics came to mind but with all these topics possessing the same weight it was difficult for him to pick one over the other.

(No, even before picking a topic I should probably ...)

An awkward scenario slowly manifests in the demonic self's mind as he pieces his thoughts together.

"..."

Perhaps realizing the difficulties the other party is experiencing Die Fei gradually narrows her eyes with a hint of irritation as she soundlessly moves closer.

"..."

[...?]

Sensing a force of energy being gathered behind him the demonic self turns around abruptly to receive a punch from Die Fei at the last possible second.

[What are yo-?]

Leaning her face forward Die Fei cuts the demonic self off and with eyes that seems to be looking back on a piece of memory that had happened many, many years ago-

"When we met for the first time we agreed to work together to grab the cubs of Saber Fanged Vajras. But-"

Hearing these words the demonic self felt as if he had been struck by lightning for these words have readily resolved the awkward scenario that he had thought about but even before he can feel any hints of joy for having had the matter resolved-

"At the last moment you decided to ruin everything. All the effort that I had expended for that plan ended up being for naught."

Nearing the end of her second statement the disappointment in Die Fei's tone gradually turns to anger as she looks to the demonic self with annoyance.

[That's-]

Without letting the demonic self finish his sentence Die Fei throws out a second punch and reacting to this attack the former quickly takes a step back.

Closing the gap between her and the demonic self Die Fei launches another strike.

Knowing that trying to distance himself would only be a futile waste of effort the demonic self quickly performs a single-handed incantation gesture before waving his hand.

*Boom...!!!* as threads of energy erupts from the earth they wrap themselves around Die Fei just as her left arm straightens completely to send out a shockwave that kicks up a giant cloud of dust!

"..."

[...]

As the billowing dust cloud settles the sight of Die Fei's fist being an inch away from landing on the demonic self's chest is revealed.

[You... Know abou-]

"When I felt the air of reincarnation on him... Everything hit me all at once causing me to enter a deep slumber."

[...]

"Within my cocoon I had a dream. In that dream my name wasn't Die Fei."

As the threads of energy that binds her loosens Die Fei drops her arm and looks to the demonic self with a mix of emotions.

"In that dream I was reborn as a clansman of the Nie family and I was given the name Nie Qian Ye."

To Die Fei that dream was truly an entire lifetime's worth as she experienced the way that a proper human being would grow from infanthood to adulthood.

The first half of that dream was truly just a dream, a wonderful experience that many would wish to be eternally trapped in but like all dreams it was nothing more than an ephemeral instance as the dream's second half-

"Why is it that on the day I decided to head out as a means of passing time... Why is it that I just had to encounter the person named Ye Gui Feng of all people on that day?"

Along with the formation of a single teardrop the bitter memories that are eternally engraved within Die Fei's head surfaces one after the other.

"Why is it that fate decided to bring you to the Nie family? Why couldn't that incident with the Saber Fangs have just been our final meeting?"

If their first meeting was merely just a coincidence in which two strangers had just so happened to brush shoulders while passing by the other in life, then their second meeting was truly where their awkward relationship had begun.

[...]

Knowing the inevitable conclusion of Die Fei's dream the demonic self inwardly sighs as he recalls the past or in this case maybe it would be more appropriate to call it the future.

(...I shouldn't have called out to her.)

With the current mood between them being as if he had unknowingly ripped opened an old scab the demonic self instantly felt regretful in calling Die Fei out for a conservation. Had he known that this would be the result he would have surely done nothing and left quietly.

Wanting to discard her own emotions of love towards Ye Gui Feng in that dream the girl named Nie Qian Ye had asked her mother to erase her memories so that even when she and Ye Gui Feng would have met for the third time their relationship-

"From the very beginning we should have just been two strangers that so just happens to brush our shoulders together. When I chose to forget everything-"

That should have been the end of their story together, yet-

"Everything should have ended between us. Compared to her I don't amount to much in your eyes so when I emerged from my cocoon I accepted my life as Nie Qian Ye as nothing more than an illusory dream. In that dream I chose to forget and after waking up in the real world I also chose to forget because there's no longer any more space in your heart."

Pressing her head against the demonic self's chest Die Fei hides her face away from sight.

"I figured that once I stepped into reincarnation I would permanently erase the memories that I have of you so that I may live a life of ignorance but-"

Clenching her fists tightly Die Fei pushes the demonic self back and using a tone that is trying to desperately hold back her tears-

"Why is it that you... Have to appear before me again in this form? Why can't you also just forget everything? Why? Why must you make me suffer like this?"

Seeing the attitude that the demonic self had used to bring this matter up to the surface Die Fei knew that the person before her didn't have the answers to her questions but-

"Answer me... What am I supposed to do?"

She still felt the need to ask and depending on their answer-

"...This may very well be the-"

The first time Die Fei chose to forget was within her dream as Nie Qian Ye.

The second time she chose to forget was when she had emerged from her cocoon and the third time-

"...Third time and if possible I wish for it to be the last."

May very well just be after this conversation.

"A person of many faces," confusion, disbelief, a myriad of emotions along with heart wrenching pain struck Die Fei when she heard those words from the demonic self's mouth.

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Author: I feel like my mood will be in the negatives for a while since I received a call from my mother's doctor that the area she had surgery on shows a lump on the recent CT scan.