the ego inside me never disappear
Just watch & be calm
I supposed to be okay
I never wanted to be part of it
I just wanted what i wanted to live
Thats all but thats full of shit
I mean Im too attracted to physical items
Mysterious people are making me crazy
But I love them, I never bored away
I know that Im not enough for now
I need some education, life quality u know
I cant be right here, im bored
After one year later i'll be no one
I cant stand not being good or the best
Need development in me, i want it painfully
If i have nothing i cant have my ego still there
I just love my ego, my right thoughts
Ill let no one but him
Its just my 2023 goals and
If I couldnt do some better things
Im gonna kill myself
That normal things are gonna keep me think ur gonna okay, u can do better, u still have time
But 1 year later im gonna be same, and im not good enough, below normal, it makes me think is there any reason why u alive? how can u live like this? and its gonna kill me however theres a people who tells me bout how Im important person.
The relaxing time is over for me.
I need some beer and wine with my fucking stressful busy work or study.
I need this. I really wanted to be busy and get everything i can deserve.
It must me this year or never. Cause I cant wait 10 years and keep this depression in my mind.
