Ask or Dare A Lot of People

LR (Louisa's Relationships)

At around 30 seconds is where I left off

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~Still in Peedee's mind~

Me: *runs a hand through hair* *pacing around the room*
Even while it's ending keep it inside..
I can feel us bending-
All our love is pending
So what am I defending!?.... *falls back on the bed* *feels the frame by my left hand*
Even if I say "I'll open my eyes" *holds picture in front of me* *looking at the picture again*
All my words are empty with these denies-
But I can feel us bending
All our love is pending
So what am I defending??~-
But I'd be fine prete-
Eh-eh eh-eh. Eh-eh eh-eh-eh-eh- (x3) *sets the frame down softly* *sits up* *somehow doesn't notice Peedee*
Step into the light.. to look him in the eye- *shakes head*
Feeling so exposed
I'd try to stay composed! *pacing around the room again*
But every little fight
And every little lie *tears are falling freely now*
Is impossible to hide.... *sighs* *hands drop down to sides*
He knows that.. we're drowning
I'll hope that.. there's still something left- *falls down to knees* nOo.

Peedee: *puts hand over mouth* *wants to hug Louisa* *trying not to burst into tears*

Me: let go now, cause he's leaving!~.... *breathes in and out* *sits down*
But I'd be fine pretending thing's are alright! *tries to fake a smile* *looks a bit convincing* *not fully convincing though*
Even while it's ending, keep it inside..
I can feel us bending-
All our love is pending
So what am I defending?!?...
Even if I say "I'll open my eyes"
All my words are empty with these denies-
But I can feel us bending
All our love is pending
So what am I defending?~-
But I'd be fine prete-
Eh-eh eh-eh. Eh-eh eh-eh-eh-eh- (x3) *stands up* *looks back in the mirror* *tries to fake another smile* *looks more convincing* *looks myself in the eyes* *hurt is in my eyes* *sighs*
I hate to feel this hurt.
I know it isn't right.... *looks back in the mirror* *finally does a convincing smile* *looks in the eyes* *sees "happiness"*
But I can find the courage to leave it all behind..... *motions hand to mean the past* *smiles* *tail wagging softly* *thinks if I can smile and sound sad, then I know I'll be able to think sad and look happy*
I wish I had the words to help me realize
That there is just no way to bring Donnisa back to life...

(1:52 is the motioning behind thing I meant)

Peedee: *blinks twice shocked*
Me: *frowns* we know that.. we're drowning...
But I'm fine with pretending thing's are alright! *tail wagging* *last tear falls*
Even while it's ending, keep it inside.
I can feel us bending-
All our love is pending *still faking happiness*
*scaringly convincing* so what was I defending? *chuckles* *grabs the framed picture*
Even if I say "I'll open my eyes"
All my words are empty with these denies- *walks towards the trash can*
But I can feel us bending
All our love is pending
I'll give up defending~- *fakes an innocent smile* *still scaringly convincing*
But I am fine prete-
Eh-eh eh-eh. Eh-eh eh-eh-eh-eh- (x3)
I am fine. *drops the frame in the trash can* *hears the glass of the frame break*

Peedee: *tears streaming down his face* *hugs Louisa*

Me: *softly gasps* *realization hits quick* hEyYy- *clears throat* *high pitched* what's-

Peedee: you really loved him... didn't you?

Me: *tears up* *nods head* *hugs Peedee*

~Back in the reality~

Peedee: *gasps* *opens eyes* *noticed he had tears spilling out of his eyes* *looks up at Garnet*

Garnet: *makes visors disappear* *looks at Peedee sadly* in that reality... you and Louisa stayed together. She forgot about Donnie.... but was always depressed because of how much she hurt Donnie.. and how he hurt her.

Peedee: *still crying a lot*

Garnet: Louisa eventually left a note and... *looks down* *Ruby's crying her eyes out* *Sapphire is consoling Ruby* *a tear softly comes from one of Garnet's eyes*

Peedee: *realized what Garnet meant* *gasps* *scoots back* *starts messing with the bottom of his shirt sadly* w-what... would the letter have said?

Garnet: *sighs* *wipes the tear away* *makes a new pair of visors* *adjusts visors* word for word - "I am sorry.. but I can't hurt this much. If I hurt Donatello that bad to not trust me, I don't want to do this to anyone ever again"

Peedee: *eyes widen*

Garnet: "so I'll just remove the problem... permanently" - permanently was underlined and in red. You ended up telling everyone what it said as you read it to yourself.

Peedee: so.. she's just destined to get hurt by every other guy she dates?

Garnet: I guess... in some realities Marco ends up always yelling at her. In some realities Murphy's Law kept taking effect because of Milo's father, so Milo falls into depression because the one he loves ends up hurt.

Peedee: and Tom?

Garnet: he could cheat on her, argue with her, and end up getting her in love with him like nothing even happened.

Peedee: wow-

Garnet: it gets even worse if she decides she's bisexual and dates a girl.

Peedee: you're kidding...

Garnet: April would make Louisa change her appearance. Always liking how Louisa looked in a different way. Short hair, girly clothes. Connie would be abusive... as Star-

Peedee: *eyes widen* nice, happy going Star?!?

Garnet: she ends up accidentally making Louisa depressed by how happy she is. Star makes it look so easy, as it's hard for Louisa sometimes... she ends up leaving a note for that too-

Peedee: I thought you said there's alternate futures, or something- how come if Louisa gets with Star she's destined to... leave a note?!

Garnet: they all depend on how long it takes her to leave the note.

Peedee: *groans* *lays back* *looks up at the ceiling*

Garnet: hmm... *adjusts visors* though it looks like you might get a new girlfriend

Peedee: *eyes widen* *softly blushed* *looks to the side* I'm still in love with Louisa though-

Garnet: *smirks* not for long~

Peedee: *blush darkens* *glares at Garnet a bit* sh-shuddup!..

Garnet: better than the other thing I could've said. *crossed her arms* *acts like she's about to go back to meditating*

Peedee: wait, what?!

Garnet: *chuckles* it's about Louisa and Tom-

Tbc

Okay that's it my wonderful foodies~ Now I hope I can serve you another chapter soon!

~ILoveFood