Saviors [A SVU and Bensler Fan Fic]

[Chapter Seventy-One]

"Why are you drinking coffee?" Serena laughed, as I sat a mug in front of her, and sank down onto one of my dining room chairs with a mug for myself.

"I didn't sleep last night. Mom, we really have to talk."

"About?" She asked as if she didn't know that I was clearly upset.

"I don't think it's a good idea having you live here."

"Excuse me?" She questioned.

"Mom, Elliot and I are parents now. Before we had Chris, we could have you live here, and recover here, but now that we have a kid, I don't think it would be wise for you to stay here."

"I'm not going to drug your kid!" She yelled.

"Mom, I'm not saying that you would! I mean that I don't want you to be lying to us and fall of the wagon, to only have Christopher get into the drugs you hid, and have him get hurt." I replied, passionately. I want her here, I really do, but I can't risk the life of my son. He has to be taken care of, and my mother is a grown woman and can take care of herself... or at least I think she can.

"He'll be okay! I don't plan on getting back into drugs!" She cried, as she stood up and started to pace the kitchen.

"But what if I have a baby and he starts to crawl around and you did get drugs. What if you hid them in like a pocket of your pants and forget to take it out and the baby gets it?!"

"But you said you weren't having kids for a while! Christopher knows better!"

"Mom, just please stop! Elliot is going to help you find an apartment, and we got you that job at the bookstore. You can be over here all the time, but Mom, I can't be risking the life of my son." I breathed, and she just slammed her mug down and stomped out and into the garage.

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"Alright since we have to do paperwork, I got us dinner," Fin spoke, as he sat a pizza box on my desk. 

"You bought me dinner? What... I'm surprised." I said, and he smiled.

"You've seen down today, so I just thought I'd be nice. Don't start expecting me to be nice, because I don't plan on it, Benson." He spoke, and I laughed a bit.

"Fin, did you have a good relationship with your mother?" I questioned, and he shook his head.

"Nope, not at all. I was a little shit when I was younger, and clearly, that hasn't changed." He smirked, and I chuckled a bit as I grabbed a piece of pizza before passing the box to him.

"Mind if I rant?"

"Please. I like having a partner with a clear mind, it's better than having a foggy mind and accidentally shooting me."

"I'd never shoot you, Fin." I sighed, before taking a bite out of the pizza. I sat it down and finished chewing before speaking.

"So, my mother was in rehab, and now that she's out, I'm nervous about her falling off the wagon."

"It happens all the time." He replied, as he clicked his pen and looked at me.

"Well, we have a kid and I'm scared that she could possibly hurt him. We had that case a month ago, the Taylor boy."

"Oh yeah, he was only a year old and got into his older brother's coke... it was horrible." Fin admitted, and I nodded.

"I just want to prevent that."

"Do what you have to do to protect your kid. I wish I would've done that with Ken."

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I went home and Serena's car was still there. Elliot's wasn't and neither was Cynthia's. I parked my car and went inside. Christopher was laughing loudly in the living room, but I have no idea why Elliot wasn't home, or the sitter didn't get him from school.

"Chrissy?" I questioned, as I sat my stuff down on the island, before walking into the living room. Serena was helping with his homework, and I knew she was trying to prove to me that she could be a good person in my son's life, but I'm unsure if she really can be.

"Mommy! I missed you today!" He exclaimed as he came running towards me. I smiled as I picked him up and covered his face in kisses. I looked over at Serena as my son hugged my neck.

"I'm going to stay and try Liv. I don't care what you say."

"Mom this-"

"This is my life and I'm staying here so I can be a part of Christopher's life."

"Where are Cy and Elliot? It's late, and Chris needs sleep."

"They are still at work. I can put him to bed." Serena spoke, and I shook my head.

"I got it... I just don't know if I want you here alone with him."

"Why can't I spend time with Grandma?" Chris asked, and I swallowed hard.

"Go get ready for bed. I'll be up to put you to bed soon."

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Serena and I argued for nearly an hour before she stormed out once again. I was crying and overwhelmed, and when I went to check on Chris, he had fallen asleep in his bed without his blankets covering him up. I tucked him in as he liked it, before heading into my bedroom. I stood and looked out into the backyard and saw Serena smoking a cigarette.

I don't want to kick her out completely, but having her here was dangerous. If she gets angry, she may start drinking and she's violent when drunk. Or if she had a hard day at work, she might get tempted to go back to her dealer and get something to numb her pain. And I can't have that.

"Hey." Elliot breathed, as he came into our room. I turned around and looked at him.

"Are you tired?" I asked as I wiped tears from my cheeks.

"No, but you look exhausted." He frowned.

"I need to get my mind off of all that is happening. So just shut up and let's get our minds off of all of this." I spoke, before starting to take my sweater off.

"Babe, are you sure?"

"Elliot, I just want to be with you, okay?"

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