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•𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 197 🥀

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Y/N's POV, April 16th 1993

I was at Vince's place right now for the release party for his debut solo album, the party had been underway for about an hour now, I'd found Vince when I first arrived but obviously he was being wanted by everyone here so I left him alone and conversed with a few of the people I knew who were here.

I'd totally lost Vince by now, he wasn't anywhere in sight and I'll go looking for him because when I saw him when I got here, he didn't looked too thrilled which surprised me a little. It must be strange for him though and be a little overwhelming.

I was talking with Steve Stevens but when someone came over to him, I ended the chat we were having and went in search of Vince- there was a number of people here, musicians, record executives, friends, friends of friends and god knows who else.

I kept my eye out for Vince as I moved from the living room into the kitchen and dining room area, I looked around and luckily it didn't take me too long to locate Vin in the crowd, I found him sat up on the far side of the kitchen in the corner of the counter sipping on a drink of undetermined liquid staring at his lap.

Feeling a little concerned for him I make my way over and the few people around the area did kinda look at me while I was going over, maybe they'd tried to talk to Vin but didn't get much of a response but I knew Vinnie and knew he wasn't just going to ignore me, even if he felt antisocial.

"You look like you've dropped a winning lottery ticket down a drain, what's the matter? You should be happy, it's a party." I asked Vince softly, sitting up on the counter next to him.

"I am happy." He sighed not removing his eyes from his lap.

"You really don't look it hun."

"I am happy but I guess being here and not having the other guys here... it feels wrong, it shouldn't be like this... I shouldn't have had to do this. Be alone. It was never meant to get to this point. It still doesn't feel right... still feels like somethings missing from this album..."

"It will because it's not Mötley Crüe, this is you and only you... it's going to take adjusting too but you'll get used to it, it's going to take time to get used to being alone after being in a band for ten years. It's never going to be exactly like a Crüe album but that doesn't mean it's any less than any Crüe album. This album reflects you and what you stand for in music... I love that... I love you, Vinnie and I love what you've done with this album."

The man nods a little then adds "I should be over it by now... they're over it but for some reason having the guys on bad terms with me is something I can't let go of. Being out the band sucks but it is nice to do my own thing, I'll admit that but I still prefer being with other people and the thing that bothers me the most is that they don't talk to me... they pretend like I don't exist. I lost three of my closest friends... we were a family... I'd like being solo more if I was on good terms with the others but I'm not... it sounds stupid for someone like me to be miserable about falling out with some friends over a year ago and still be hung up on it."

"It's not stupid, it's never going to be stupid. You were suddenly dropped into a world on your own, losing contact with people who'd been with you for years... we weren't just friends, like you said, we were all family and being cast out is hard, you have every right to still feel betrayed and still talk about it because it's still an open wound to you... it's all okay, Vinnie. I'm not judging you... I don't like seeing the four of you split up either. It still hurts me too cause I'm in the middle of it."