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Y/N's POV, March 15th 1994

Tonight was the album release party, since the party got underway just over an hour ago, I'd tried my best to be excited, and a little bit of me actually was because I knew this meant a lot to Nikki and to Tommy even if it meant almost nothing to me.

Because Nikki was 'the leader' of the band, many people wanted to talk to him, his friends, the record executives who were here everyone wanted to talk with him and I wanting to support Nikki even if I hated it was stood next to him, smiling and speaking when spoken too.

I wish I could just escape this party and not be here the more Nikki spoke to people but I couldn't, the party was being thrown in our house and I'd go upstairs and lock myself in our bedroom if I didn't know Nikki would follow me and then we'd probably argue about the album and the band and Vince and I wasn't up for dealing with that argument today.

I was exhausted enough as it was, emotionally and physically, not just from my pregnancy but from everything, just everything going on, tonight included.

Because of the party being thrown at home, Blaze was at Vince's for the night, I'd dropped him there earlier as Skylar was with there right now and I also just wanted to see Vince before tonight, for the sake of it really. Seeing him earlier made the thought of tonight more tolerable.

Vince saw when I dropped Blaze off I didn't want to be with Nikki tonight for this party as I had nothing to celebrate but he told me I had to try and enjoy myself and not be miserable and not let him not being here ruin it for me.

Vince's pep talk did help and I did start tonight with a good mindset really I did, but as time has ticked on and Nik had spoke to more people that mindset was diminishing. Everyone here was being so cheerful, everyone was telling Nikki what he wanted to hear and I was having a hard time staying silent.

Outside of tonight, nothing significant had occurred the last couple of months. Things with the baby were fine, the entire situation wasn't as hard hitting yet as it had been with Blaze, I wasn't having as rough symptoms but still, it was uncomfortable at times, it'll be worth it though. The only other thing worth I guess mentioning was what Nik had done to his hair, like Tommy had done, Nikki had cut his hair for the video they filmed at the end of January for 'Hooligans Holiday', Nikki with shorter hair was honestly such a weird thing for me to adjust too, I wasn't at all fond of it and even now almost two months after the change in image, I wasn't too fond of it, I'm sure it'll grow on me eventually but in my opinion it's too short... but it's not my decision and if it's what Nikki wanted then he could do as he wished.

That was about it though, tonight was the only memorable thing worth mentioning in the last few months, tonight is the night we've all been waiting for all for different reasons, some better than others.

Heading back to what's happening now then, Nik and I were talking with a couple of John's friends, they'd come over to Nikki and struck up a conversation about five minutes ago, neither of us had met them before and the reason I say it was unfortunate was because they were complimenting Nikki on the album, basically blowing smoke up his ass saying how good it was and all of that, I was just stood there with a forced smile on my face side eyeing Nikki every-time he agreed with them.

These guys were really making a full conversation about this and I wasn't comfortable hearing this, they were obviously on John's side, telling Nikki how good of a singer he is and how lucky Nik was to get him in the band because he's an 'asset' to them. I was struggling to listen when they even brought up Vince and how they were never really that fond of him fronting the band.