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Y/N's POV, 29th September 1993

I had a spilt day today, half of it was at home with Nikki then the other half was being spent over at Vince's house, he'd done all the shows he had in the US, he completed that only a few days ago and was not just waiting for the other shows he had to come around and I hadn't seen him in person in weeks so had decided to go over and pay him a visit.

I would have gone over to visit him yesterday as that was his original idea but Nikki wanted me at the studio with him and the others so I couldn't but there was nothing much happening today so it worked out fine.

Talking of the album, the release date was March next year and the last few weeks had really made me realise the level of almost delusion Tommy and Nikki were under with the success they think this album would get.

They've honestly convinced themselves that this is the best album they've ever done and it was kind of unbelievable. In the beginning, when they first fired Vince I think they were trying to convince themselves that they'd done the right thing but now they'd both done it and convinced themselves they'd made the best choice they ever could have made and hearing Tommy and Nikki say this near every day made me miss Vince even more than I already was.

Miss him so much that I actually had started wearing the engagement ring he'd given to me, not on my finger, but on a chain around my neck, it was mostly hidden from everyone's view, the ring itself rested in my bra and I just wore it to make myself remember the old days, I mess with it when nobody's looking and it helps me not miss Vinnie as much.

Because Nik and Tommy were so far into their delusions about the album I did want to talk to Nikki and talk about his unrealistic expectations, he'd get defensive I'm sure but I still wanted to bring it up just to see if he really was as far into the delusion as I thought he was.

I'd been waiting for an opportunity to bring it up since this morning, I was due at Vince's in a little over two hours so I still had time to find a time to bring this up but honestly I had a chance now I was just procrastinating against it. He won't like what I have to say, but Nik never does, he never likes when I critique this version of the band, he's fine with me disliking it as long as I say nothing.

I guess me talking about it makes him doubt it maybe but I really wasn't sure.

I had to just bring it up and get it out the way at this point in time, I just had too. Putting it off is just delaying the inevitable and if I feel the conversation is moving into argument territory then I can just remove myself from the room, as soon as my point is proven, that Nikki is genuinely convinced of the success of the 'new' band then I'll leave it there. That's all I wanted to know after all. I had to get it out the way, I just had too.

It's not that big of a deal... just say it... just bring it up and get it out the way, the sooner I bring it up the sooner the conversation can be closed.

With this thought staying with me I sigh and casually just say as we continue watching the TV screen in front of us "Can you give me an honest answer to a question without your ego getting in the way?"

Nik cast his eyes over to me and raised an eyebrow "What's the question?"

"Do you honestly think this album is going to sell well?"