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Y/N's POV, March 18th 2019

It was the premiere of the biopic tonight, the premiere was in Hollywood so wouldn't take us too long for us to get too and right now Nikki and I were home, finishing up getting ready.

The clothes we were wearing tonight had been painstakingly selected by Nikki, having gone out a few weeks ago looking for something for me to match the suit he got specially designed by me for tonight.

He was hellbent on colour coordinating us and I told him that was a tacky thing to do but he simply refused to let me get out of it and so that's how I ended up with a colour matching dress to his green and blue tartan suit.

The dress Nikki chose for me was incredibly pretty, a perfect blue/green colour, diamanté encrusted and it fit me perfectly but I was wearing it right now and I didn't feel great in it because I knew there would be all the other guys' girls at this premiere and I was obviously the oldest of them all by quite a margin and I wasn't ready for the criticism I'd probably get from the public and media. I'd look out of place with them, for no other reason really other than the clear age differences.

And the more I looked at myself in the mirror the more I hated what I saw.

Nikki was just putting on some of his jewellery collection as I critique everything I could, and eventually I shook my head, running my hands down my sides "This dress was a bad fucking idea."

"Why?" The bassist asked totally perplexed from where he was stood a few feet away.

"Cause it's too pretty for me, I look stupid."

"You look fine, stop scrutinizing yourself." Nikki says as he throws on his blazer.

"I look awful, Nik."

"You've confused the words awful and beautiful." He told me walking over and kissing me on the cheek "Anyways, you let me take control of your wardrobe for tonight and I like to colour coordinate with you, you like the colour."

I rolled my eyes "You know damn well that my issue isn't with the colours of the damn dress, the dress is fit for a princess, its stunning, I'm not either of those things. I never have been." I huffed walking away from the mirror and sitting myself on the edge of the bed.

Nikki sighed and walked over, sitting beside me, sliding an arm around me "If this is about being compared to Brittany, Serainia and Ra-"

"You're going to say it doesn't matter. It does matter Nikki, it's always going to fucking matter. Seeing all the other guys with younger women when I'm just here makes me feel like I don't deserve you and I hate feeling like that but that's what it does. I never thought that I'd ever feel ashamed of being with you but I do, because surely you must think that maybe I'm not what you want anymore."

"No, you can't think like that... you can't ever think like that... it's hard and I understand that but you're still the most beautiful thing in the world to me, you haven't changed that much baby, in fact you've hardly changed at all."

"You saying that does shit to make me feel better."

"Listen to me, people are always going to say things, and it doesn't help that the other guys have younger women with them but that just proves that we love each other because we're still together after all this time. Hey, we've been married thirty years this year... if that doesn't show that we're hopelessly in love with one another still I don't know what will... if I didn't want you anymore, I'd fucking tell you about it, cause stringing you along would do neither of us any good. I love you, fuck what anyone else has to say because that's the only truth of the matter."