Love In The Lights (Justin Bieber Story)

Chapter 23

JUSTIN'S POINT OF VIEW

YN was pounding at my chest telling me she hated he and that broke my heart but i knew it wasn't true but it still hurt. she was screaming and crying into my chest whilst hitting me but suddenly her body just collapsed in my arms, her body was so lifeless. she stopped pounding and hitting against my chest. her cries and sobs stopped as her body just stayed in my arms silent. her body collapsed onto the floor as she laid their lifeless. my pulse raised as i knew something wasn't right with her, her eyes closed and her body just laid there on the floor still. i scooped her up into my arms and placed her in the passenger seat as her body just seemed to be not responsive. my heart rate was raising as i thought of the worst. i was unsure of what happened to her she just stopped and collapsed onto the floor. i grabbed her car keys from her bag and began to drive her to the nearest hospital. taking deep breathes to try and calm myself down although it wasn't working, i can't loose her i just can't she means to much to me. i didn't break up with her, i couldn't of i love her to much. i care about her too much. i refuse to let her go and i won't ever let her go i am going to be there for her no matter what. i was driving at a speed that i am sure is illegal but i had other things on my mind and other things being YN and making sure she is okay. when we arrived at the hospital i carried her bridal style in pushing my way through the crowds of paparazzi not listening to them scream at shout things at me 'get out of the way!' i screamed aggressively to get them out of the way which didn't work and it only made me angrier. i looked down at YN who was still lifeless in my arms her breathing was steady but her face was red, red from the tears that had been streaming down her face, red from the hurt and anger that i had caused her and that broke my heart even more than i though was possible. as soon as i got in the nurses took her away from me and put her into a room and checked her out. i knew it wasn't going to be anything to serious and she probably just fainted i just wanted to make sure that she was safe and everything was okay and mainly i wanted to make sure everything was okay between us.

YOUR POINT OF VIEW

i fluttered my eyes open and allowed my eyes to adjust to the room around me although i wasn't sure where i was i looked around and i saw that i was in a hospital but i don't remember why. i looked to my right and saw Justin sitting their staring at me and as soon as he saw me his eyes locked on mine and his whole face lit up 'you're up' he whispered as he walked over to me and sat down in the chair next to my bed, i just nodded not knowing what to say or do because of course i love him but he broke up with me, and although he was drunk, he must of been thinking it to say it. you know what they say a drunk mouth speaks a sober mind 'i'll get the doctor' Justin said softly as he stood up and walked out of the room and returned shortly with a man who was small with short brown hair and some stubble on his chin.. he looked like an average middle ages man honestly probably around the age of 40 'YN you are awake that's good' he said as i sat up in the bed adjusting myself as Justin sat down on the chair next to me and reached out to take my hand but i moved my hand out of reached and hugged my stomach 'you don't have something to serious to worry about, you fainted due to lack of sleep, lack of energy and you were seriously dehydrated' he explained looking up to me 'oh okay' i answered 'when was the last time you ate?' the doctor asked me and the truth was i wasn't even sure i hadn't had time in the last few days to eat properly 'the last time i ate a proper full meal was probably around two or three days ago, i have been eating snacks but i haven't really had time to eat' i explained not wanting him to think i had an eating disorder 'oh okay well you need to eat your body seems to be very weak due to the fact you haven't eaten and considering how deeply you fainted that usually means you have had a short sleep before?' the doctor questioned 'er yeah' i answered quietly not wanting to think about why i got half an hour sleep knowing that i would end up crying again 'okay well you are free to go but we suggest that you take two or three days off to rest up and recover before diving straight back into your work' he said 'i will thank you' i smiled weakly before he walked out. neither me or Justin exchanged words but i could feel his eyes burning into my body. he climbed off the sat and sat on the end of the bed i was laying on 'can you look at me?' Justin asked in a whisper i just shook my head and carried on looking in the other direction to him 'please' he begged with his voice in a whisper. his voice was full of pain but mainly desperation i couldn't bare it i shut me eyes making the tears that were forming in my eyes disappear and i moved my head so that i could look at him 'i'm sorry' he said so soft 'i don't get it' i replied which my voice soft and quiet as if i was a small vulnerable girl 'i don't get why you ended it? you said you love me but i didn't love you, when i did and still do? why did you blow me off? a-and why did you believe Zack?'i asked my voice getting quieter and quieter with every word 'do you want to know the truth?' Justin asked making me look at him, his face was red and slightly puffy as if he had been crying, i nodded in response he took a deep breathe in before beginning 'i got the texts from Zack about half an hour before your text and i didn't know what to believe because i think that you are too good for me and that you deserve someone better and i don't know i was stressed and i wasn't thinking straight about anything so i went and got drunk to try and take my mind off you but i couldn't and i don't remember anything after i had like five beers' Justin explained as he hung his head ashamed with his voice barely above a whisper. i was shocked he thought i was too good for him? that wasn't the case, he was too good for me but i was confused out of everything he could of done he got drunk? that was so out of character for him? i didn't know what to respond i wanted everything to be fine and i wanted everything to go back to being normal. but then i realized something it wasn't Justin's fault, it was Zack's it was all Zack's this is what he wanted. he wanted me and Justin to fight and break up he wanted this and why should i give it to him? why should i let Zack take away my happiness because he wanted to? i shouldn't. 'i'm sorry' i whispered out to Justin as tears feel from my eyes again as they slowly dripped down my face 'hey hey hey no' Justin said softly as he moved so he was sitting next to me as i leaned my head into his chest and cried and he softly moved his arms around my waist pulling me onto his lap as he just held me soothed me told me everything was going to be alright just like i wanted him to because whenever he said it, i believed it 'i'm so sorry' i sobbed into his chest once again 'you have nothing to be sorry' he said softly into my ear, i pulled away from his body and looked at him 'i do, i shouldn't of let him get to us, this is what he wanted' i said as i breathed heavily stopping the tears from falling 'let's not talk about it or him can we please just move on?' Justin practically begged i nodded once again as i moved into his body once again 'i love you' he whispered into my ear 'i love you too Justin' i mumbled against his chest 'do you want to go home?' he asked me 'yeah' i yawned. i collected my things and thanked the doctors before walking out hand in hand the way it is supposed to be. we were greeted with thousands of paparazzi screaming and pushing each other to get closer 'bro get out of the way' Justin yelled clearly getting annoyed at them. i stood behind Justin gripping his arms not wanting to loose him as he guided me through the crowds. the flashes were giving me a headache and stressing me out a little bit so i moved my body closer to Justin so he shielded me from any strong lights.