Love In The Lights (Justin Bieber Story)

Chapter 70

JUSTIN’S POINT OF VIEW

If I am being perfectly honest when I say this but I’m gutted as I saw YN and Josh walk out of my car and back into their house it was now around nine or ten o’clock at night, I guess I just wasn’t used to having to drop her off at home because she always stays at my house and I mean I can’t even text her because Karen has her phone, I really don’t know why to be honest and I still have no clue why she hates me, I mean yeah we broke up… but YN broke up with me and we are back together anyways, I love her, she loves me… does she not like seeing her daughter happy because I make her happy… well I hope I do. And the fact that Karen is basically not letting YN even see me just makes my heart hurt I kept racking my brain thinking and wishing for an answer of just what to do to make Karen see that I need YN to be in my life and that I love her and would do anything for her, I would die if it meant saving her the way I feel about YN is just something I can’t explain, I can’t even explain it to myself all I know is that I love her. 

I am happy that we’re getting a house together it just sucks that it has to be when I finish tour because that’s ages away but I do understand where YN is coming from. I can’t expect her to just live in a massive house all by herself, I do it and I hate it, I just wish that tour was finishing soon- don’t get me wrong I love performing and seeing all my fans I just really want to buy a house with YN and just be with her, I’m eighteen years old and I’m talking about settling down now normally this wouldn’t have even crossed my mind but for some reason it fits, it’s the only thing I seem to be finding myself thinking about lately and now it just feels right. Whether you are young or old, if you’re in true love that age doesn’t matter and that’s something I have definitely learnt.


KAREN’S POINT OF VIEW
(I know I never do Karen’s point of view but I was hoping that this would get you’ll to understand It a bit better)

So YN and Josh have been gone for hours now and they must think that I am stupid because I know full well that they haven’t just taken the bloody dog for a walk they have gone out and I find that completely disrespectful knowing I said they were grounded. I was panicking like any mother would be when their kids practically disappear without any warning and I am know thinking that taking both of their phones away from them was a bad idea. But I guess I was trying to push them away before they decided to walk away to make it easier when they do walk away but somehow I don’t know if I will be able to keep this locked up for much longer. I haven’t told anyone, not YN, not Josh not William. Don’t get me wrong I really like William but I just don’t think I love him and no matter what nobody could ever replace YN and Josh’s dad (don’t remember if I gave him a name sorry!) and I guess that’s all I have been trying to do these past years try and fill that gap that will be forever missing in my heart. But now it’s too late, what’s happened has happened and it can’t be taken back, well it can, but I would never let that happen, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.

I was sat on the staircase staring at the front door hoping my two children would walk in any time soon I just needed to know they were safe and as if God was answering my prayers the door creaked open and in walked Josh and YN, I immediately sprung up from my seat and stared at them but my relief soon turned into anger ‘WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?! DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED YOU HAVE HAD ME?!?!!?!’ I yelled at the top of my lungs as my hormones constantly changed ‘I was at Justin’s’ YN spat only making my anger rise ‘you should really have some respect for me you know instead of treating me like shit’ I spat back at her ‘respect is a two way thing, if you don’t respect me then how am I going to respect you?!’ she said as she raised her voice making me think… she did actually have a point, I didn’t say anything but turned to Josh ‘go to bed, I’ll talk to you later’ I said firmly as he let a sigh of relief escape those lips that he had clearly inherited from his father ‘I always get the blame for everything’ I heard YN mutter under her breathe, I’m guessing I wasn’t supposed to hear that so I just decided to ignore it ‘in the kitchen’ I told her before turning and walking to the kitchen with YN following me and I had a feeling that it was going to slip out of my mouth.

‘I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU’ I exploded slamming my hand down on the table ‘EVER THOUGH I’VE BEEN DOING THIS TO GET AWAY FROM YOU??!’ YN screamed for the first time since we began arguing ‘WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM ME?! AFTER EVERYTHING I HAVE EVER DONE FOR YOU?!’ I screeched ‘BECAUSE YOU’RE BEING A BITCH!’ she screeched back, but even though my own daughter had just called me a bitch I wasn’t even that annoyed because my mood swings are crazy right now ‘I don’t want to fight’ I told her looking down, I felt vulnerable. ‘Why are you so mean and nasty one minute and then so nice the next? It doesn’t make sense?!’ she asked her voice not screaming but still raised ‘BECAUSE I’M PREGNANT!’ I yelled at her once again becoming much angrier, I saw her eyes pop out of her head as her whole body froze and that’s when the tears started to furiously fall from my eyes.


YOUR POINT OF VIEW


‘BECAUSE I’M PREGNANT!’ Mum yelled at the top of her voice making my eyes practically fall out of my head and my whole body froze. My mum was pregnant, no she couldn’t be because the baby wouldn’t be my dad’s and then I just refused to even allow this thing inside of her to even exist whatever was growing inside of my mum wasn’t related to me and I hated it and It wasn’t even born yet, my mum was crying but I didn’t care I was so angry with her ‘where’s my car keys’ I said clenching my teeth she just looked at me as her bottom lip trembled as she tried to fight back the tears, shaking her head ‘WHERE ARE MY CAR KEYS?!?!’ I screamed at the top of my voice like a psycho and my mum seemed scared of me but I felt betrayed how could she do this to me… to dad? But then she scurried away and came back with both my car keys and my phone as if she knew I was going to ask for it next ‘YN’ she said as her voice cracked ‘I can’t even deal with you right now’ I said shaking my head and heading for the front door slamming it shut and walking to my car to do what all girl would mainly do is go and run to their boyfriend but I needed to be comforted and told everything else was going to be okay because right now I wasn’t so convinced.

As soon as I got to Justin’s tears were now falling from my own eyes as I jumped out of my car and sprinted to his front door and knocked on the door hoping he was in and wasn’t asleep. Tears were still falling from my eyes as I saw the light turn on near the door and slowly the door opened revealing a tired looking, shirtless Justin but as soon as he saw me his eyes were wide open ‘YN? Baby what’s wrong?’ he asked in a panic ‘i-i-I’ was all I managed to say before I completely broke down. Justin took no time to wrap his arms tightly around me and rub my back soothing me and promising everything would be okay before he even knew what wrong. As my head was buried deep in his chest, bawling my eyes out he guided me through his house and sat me down on the couch ‘baby, what’s wrong?’ he said soothingly as he pulled out of my hug and lifted my chin up so I met his eyes but I pulled my gaze away from his and dove my head back into his chest, allowing single tears to fall down his chest, and Justin did what all good boyfriend should do and he comforted me ‘everything’s going to be fine, I promise. I’m here shhhhh’ he soothed kissing the top of my head. I pulled away from him and looked up at him ‘I can’t do it anymore’ I whispered still crying horrifically, I probably looked a mess but I didn’t care I wasn’t in the mood to think about how good or bad I looked, my mum was pregnant with another man’s baby, and for me that was pure betrayal to me, josh and my dad I just don’t understand how she could do that ‘can’t do what baby?’ Justin said quietly as he pushed strands of hair behind my ear and wiped the fresh tears falling from my eyes, I opened my mouth to speak but once again nothing but sobs came out. So like a little girl I crawled into Justin’s lap and continued to cry as he let me and soothed me. 

Justin then lifted me up bridal style softly; my head was still buried deep into his bare muscular chest as he walked up the stairs effortlessly. Justin then laid me down on his bed and crawled next to me pulling the covers over both of us as he immediately wrapped his arms around me tightly pressing his lips to my forehead and keeping them there as my face was still dug deep into his chest. I couldn’t tell Justin what was wrong because I wasn’t ready to admit it to myself and I didn’t want to, is shouldn’t have to because this should have never of happened, my mum shouldn’t be pregnant –with I’m assuming William’s – baby, how could she do this to my dad because I just couldn’t understand. This was going to tear my whole family apart and I knew for sure that I wasn’t going to stick around for any of it, I don’t want to be a part of the babies life, I only need Justin I don’t need anybody else ‘shhh baby, calm down, everything will be fine I promise you, shhhh’ were the last things I heard before I closed my eyes and allowed sleep to take me under.


JUSTIN’S POINT OF VIEW

Confusion. I had no clue what was wrong with YN and I was worried about her. Nothing has ever happened like this to her before and I just needed to know what happened so I could make everything okay, instantly things started flying round my head and I made a decision that If YN needed me I was going to quit the tour and be there for her no matter what anybody else says. Her crying and sobs stopped as her tight grip around me loosened, I peeled my lips away from her forehead and looked at her to find her asleep, I just stared at her searching for the answer of what was wrong with her, what cant she do anymore? All I know is that I’m not going to sleep tonight because I’m scared something might happen to her, so I tightened my grip around her waist and pulled her closer into my body as I repeatedly kissed her head just wishing I could make whatever pain she was feeling go away.