Love In The Lights (Justin Bieber Story)

Chapter 64

YOUR POINT OF VIEW

After Justin left I was left sitting down with Bell now are my feet barking, although I was frozen, stuck in a trance. I just spoke to Justin over four months and i- he- we- ergh I don't even know what to think 'so you saw him?' Demi said sitting beside me, I just nodded still completely confused although I was so happy that he was here, beyond happy, just seeing him made me miss him even more than I thought was possible. He said I was beautiful, for a moment I forgot about everything that had happened between us I wanted everything to be okay between us but it wasn't, it was awkward neither of us knew what to say to each other. 'What happened, what did he say to you?' She asked sounding excited I took a deep breathe in before looking at her, a smile broke on my face the first real smile in four months 'asked me how I was, but then he had to go' I said furrowing my eyebrows a little 'yeah he has an interview to go to' she said nodding her head 'I'm seeing him tomorrow though' I told her as I picked up Bell and placed her down on my lap 'WHAT!?!' She screeched 'OH MY GOSH, ARE YOU GETTING BACK TOGETHER OH PLEASE DO! YOU'RE SO PERFECT TOGETHER' Demi yelled excitedly, she yelled it so loud people turned to face her 'Demi be quiet' I muttered lowering my head 'well are you!?' She questioned 'I don't know! I'm only going to drop Bell off, plus he might have moved on... Who knows' I sighed 'don't be stupid, he was the first one here and as soon as he was he was asking me if you were coming and how you were and also if you had a boyfriend' she said nudging my arm with her elbow and wiggling her eyebrows up at down. When she said that my heart beat a little faster then it was a moment ago, maybe I do have a chance, maybe he does still love me. 

I woke up the next morning and my eyes weren't red and puffy like they always were I didn't cry myself to sleep last night like every other night, I didn't worry about Justin or what he might be doing, I was excited to see him, even though I am only dropping Bell off at his house I still get to see him, and maybe even talk to him. Oh gosh I sound like a complete and utter stalker. I rolled over in bed and grabbed my phone before snuggling back down in my duvet, I checked the time and it read 12:00 hmm that's a good sleep considering I didn't get in until late from Demi's house last night because every time I went to leave either Demi or Miley came over to me and sparked up a conversation just so I wouldn't leave. I then clicked on the twitter icon, this would have been the first time in days I've checked twitter, whenever I went on I would only send a tweet and log off before I had time to even get replies knowing that it was all going to be about Justin, everyone wanted to know what was really going on between us. But I actually scrolled through my time line, looking at people's tweets, everyone was so happy and I wanted to be aswell then something caught my eye it was a tweet from Justin, it said 'a day of rest, gonna catch up with an old friend' I wondered if that was about me because we could be considered as 'friends' now because that is what I said we were I decided that I would tweet something 'wonder what today will bring' I sent the tweet and then signed off but just as I was about to lock my phone a text flashed across my screen it was from Justin. I bit my lip in anticipation waiting for the full text to load onto my screen 'hey, it's Justin, I'm free all day so you can come round whenever I'll be in x' 'okay, I've just woken up so I'll be round probably in a few hours x' I replied, and within a minute he had replied 'sounds good, and maybe we can like catch up I mean we didn't really get to talk last night? x' he said 'yeah, it'll be good too catch up with you:) x' I sent back 'okay, I'll see you in a bit x' I didn't bother to reply to that last text so I climbed out of bed and walked over to the window and opened the curtains and stared out, there were loads of dark grey clouds in the sky it's probably going to rain today but I didn't want to cancel on Justin knowing that this may be my only chance to see if anything could happen with me and Justin or there is nothing left for us.

Someone knocked on my door lightly 'come in' I called out and in walked my mum 'hey!' I sid happily 'someone's happy?' My mum questioned I just nodded my head not wanting to let on to why I was so happy knowing my mum would have something to say 'so what are you doing today?' She asked me 'oh I er- I'm going to drop Bell off at... Justin's' I said mumbling Justin's name 'excuse me?' My mum said widening her eyes at me 'I'm going to Justin's what's the big deal?' I snapped 'because HE broke your heart! And HE had you upset for months!!' She practically yelled at me 'mum,i I broke up with him it's my life so leave me alone' I said raising my voice at her 'you're not going end of' she told me 'I'm an adult I can do what I like!!' I told her 'no you will not' she said sternly 'WHY NOT!?' I yelled I was now furious with her 'BECAUSE HE'S NO GOOD FOR YOU, YOU WERE SO UNHAPPY WITH HIM' she screamed back 'UN-HAPPY!? I LOVE HIM THE ONLY TIM I WASNT HAPPY WAS WHEN I WASNT HIM DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND!!!!!' I screeched 'I know what's best for you' she told me 'no you don't!' I spat 'you live under my house, so you follow my rules!' She yelled once more 'NO I PAID FOR THIS HOUSE!' I screamed 'why don't you run off for weeks again then' she told me, her voice sounded like it was full of hate but I didn't understand why 'maybe I will' I spat viciously and with that she walked out of my room and slammed by door shut. My mum says she wants me to be happy but why can't she see that I am only happy when I'm with justin! This past four months all I have done is cried and now I have one more chance of being happy she doesn't want me to take it, I don't understand what is wrong with this women. As soon as she shut the door I walked over to my wardrobe and grabbed the first clothes I could find, I just wanted to get out of this house, I threw on my black leggings and over sized jumper before pulling my hair back into a pony tail and applying a little mascara just so I didn't look so awful. And as soon as I was ready I grabbed my phone and stomped out of my room and jogged angrily down the stairs and walked straight into the living room where my mum was sitting playing with Bell 'come on Bell' I said clapping my hands and as soon as I did she stopped playing with my mum and ran over to me, yeah that's right bitch I'm her favourite. I grabbed her collar and lead before heading to the front door 'where do you think you're going?' My mum called from the living room 'away from you!' I yelled as I opened the door and walked out slamming the door behind me.

By the time I reached Justin's house it was two o'clock and I was nervous of what might happen. But I gathered all my courage and climbed out of my car grabbing Bell. As I walked over to his front door I just stared at it before bringing my hand up and knocking lightly 'Hey YN' Justin said as he opened the door 'hey' I said quietly as Bell practically jumped out of my arms and into Justin's but when I was passing her to him his warm hand touched mine as fireworks flew around my body I just stared at him as Justin stared back at me with the same look, he felt the fireworks just like I did 'come in' he whispered as he moved aside making room for me to walk in 'thank you' I muttered looking down at my feet as I followed him in to his house, he walked into his living room as I looked around, nothing here had changed everything was in the same spot as it was the last time I came here. Justin sat down on the couch, and I did the same but just sat on the other side of the couch it felt like thousands of miles apart. Justin placed Bell on the floor as she ran off to explore the new house she has only been in once. For minutes neither me or Justin spoke we just sat there in silence 'so how are you?' Justin said finally breaking the silence 'I'm okay, mums being well mum I guess' I sighed quietly 'oh what happened?' Justin asked although the whole situation was awkward 'she er- she didn't like that I was coming to see you today' I muttered hoping that he wouldn't hear 'oh' was all he said his voice sad and thick 'I should have treated you better' he said as he looked down 'what? No' I said shaking my head 'I'm sorry you know' he muttered looking up at me with hurt in his eyes I just nodded my head already feeling tears forming in my eyes, I brought my left hand up to my face to wipe away the few tears that had escaped my eyes when Justin lifted his hand up to my eyes and removed my hand from my face, he then wiped away my tears softly, his gentle touch making sparks fly in my body and melt under my skin 'you still wear the ring?' Justin asked me as his voice cracked I just nodded 'I didn't want to take it off' I admitted Justin just stared at me and didn't say anything. Tapping began to start on the window showing that it was now raining just like I had predicted earlier 'you should stay here until the rain clears up, I don't want you getting hurt' Justin mumbled only loud enough for me to here, but I nodded in agreement.

Hours passed, multiple films were watched as the rain never stopped but words were never ex-changed, it was awkward to say the least and I just wished that it wasn't. 'What happened to us YN?' Justin sighed in defeat I looked at him truth was I didn't know myself 'I don't know' I muttered 'I miss you, you know' he said changing the subject 'I miss you too' I told him, Justin looked at me and stared deep into his eyes it's as if every time I look into his eyes I will do whatever he wants, he then licked his dry lips before moving closer to me, my heart was officially beating like crazy and pounding out of my chest 'I still love you, with everything I have' he told me but I just stared into his eyes as my whole body froze. Justin continued to move closer to me until his face was only inches away from mine, he licked his lips once more before leaning into my lips, I was leaning in to. As soon as our lips touched sparks, fireworks were blowing up In my body. I never knew how much I knew I needed him, how much I loved him, and I needed to show him. I kissed him back instantly as my hands -as if by instinct- found there way around his neck as his found there way to my hips. His lips were soft and gentle just like I remembered them to be. Justin softly pressed his body against mine making me lay down on the couch as he still never broke our kiss. His tongue softly glided along my lips begging for an entrance that I accepted. The kiss didn't get heated, it just became more passionate. Justin then lifted me off of the couch and wrapped my legs around his waist tightly still never breaking the kiss. My hands were tangled in his hair as his were tightly rested on my thigh as he began to walk some where but I couldn't see as my eyes were closed. After a short amount of time justin was walking, he laid me down on bed I'm guessing his bed, as we both finally pulled away from the kiss gasping for air. Both me and Justin then leaned back in before peeling away each other's clothes away.

Justin's body collapsed against mine as both of our panting's and gasps for air filled the room 'stay here the night, it's still raining, please?' Justin asked sweetly and quietly as his arms were still tight around my waist, I just nodded and laid my head down on his chest, and closing my eyes.