Chapter 94

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YOUR POINT OF VIEW

Fluttering my eyes open, I adjusted my eyes to the familiar surroundings that were once my bedroom the light purple walls and silver bedding was still the same as before, only there was a small cot in the corner, I'm guessing mum was planning to turn this room into a nursery for either the little baby boy or girl that was due in just five months. As soon as I ran out of mine and Justin's house, or just his house- I'm not too sure right now, I don't know what's going on in my life let alone where I live- I ran straight back here to mum's house knowing it was the only place of comfort and reassurance I had left, regardless of the fact that we hadn't been speaking for the past few days due to the argument we had in the shopping centre, she took me in, made me feel better and even asked if her friends could go on New Year's Eve so she could comfort me, I was wrong to ever doubt the love she has for me, I had nowhere else to go and I needed my head to be clear before I even thought about what I was going to do with Justin, yeah I was the one that said I needed to think but that is only because he was fucking with my head, one minute he was saying that he didn't want to marry me and didn't know what he wanted, then the next minute he was begging me not to go and not to leave him, but for any person, girl or boy it's enough to fuck with their head, I just needed space from everyone and everything. Work, Justin. Just thinking about it was enough for tears to brim my eyes one more for the thousandth time in a day, I barely slept last night my mind was replaying everything over and over in my head, the fight, me giving Justin the wedding ring back, his desperate begs and cried for me not to leave, but he left me no choice, he left me confused and broken, I needed to think everything through and I had the right to. New Years is supposed to be a time where you spend time with your family and loved ones, having fun, laughing, joking around, being in love, but not in my case but then again nothing in my life stays perfect for very long.

A buzzing from next to me, snapped me away from my thoughts, whipping my head in that direction, I saw my phone lighting up on the bed side table, shifting uncomfortably in my dress from last night I stretched out and grabbed my phone, immediately regretting it as I saw Justin's name flash up on the screen, as my phone continued to ring, my heart stopped, I didn't want to answer I wasn't ready, so I hit the decline button knowing that was the worst thing to do, by now Justin would know I wasn't just not answering my phone I was purposely ignoring his calls, because I didn't want to talk to him. Watching his name from my screen, I sunk my tooth into my lip, trying to prevent me from crying. My breathing became uneven and heavy as I pulled the fully duvet up over my chest clutching onto my phone tightly, staring at the screen, not sure if I was waiting for Justin to call back or not. Several sobs left my lips as I unlocked my phone, immediately seeing my screen saver of me and Justin, tears stinging my eyes as I didn't even try to fight them back, letting them fall freely down my face. Three calls and two texts from Miley, sixteen calls and five texts from Justin, I couldn't face Justin's texts yet, so taking a deep breathe in and releasing it, I clicked on the texts from Miley 'where are you? Justin came in basically crying and panicking, just let me know you're okay xx' was the first and 'he told me what happened, I'm so sorry YN please just let me know you're safe I won't tell him, I promise, you can talk to me xx' I let out another deep breath, one that I was unaware I was holding, I decided to reply 'I'm fine, I'm staying at mum's for now just to clear my head xx' I replied bracing myself before I opened the first text from Justin, feeling fresh tears form in my eyes as I began to read the first one 'YN please don't leave me I need you, I want to marry you, just let me explain everything please I need to know you're safe, I'm begging you, please just come home to me' was the first one, my heart was aching my there was nothing I could do, I kept on reading them, every single text just making my heart hurt even more

'Baby please I love you'

'Please come home, I just need to know where you are and that you're safe'

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