Why do I find myself in this oasis
Is this nothing but a mirage
Am I gonna be left to die by the scolding sun
Are you the water I desperately need
Even if you're poison to my system left
Me wondering why the fuck do I keep
Coming back to a friendship that's more
Akin to ash and dying embers best
Left to be forgotten like the time I was
In hell the past is best forgotten no
But how do I forget when the scars haunt
Me from the darkness of my shadows
Why do I find myself in this oasis
Is this nothing but a mirage
The funny thing is I feel like a strange yet
I'm not just someone who sees you just to
Get pulled into heartache by an abysmal void
Wondering what's the point when every time
I see you my heart it aches for something
That gone and been burned why do I keep
Fucking coming back there's not point we
Had it than it broke and fractured are we
Friends I don't know I'm just an observer
Who can never find the answers to my
View of this world the pain taught me
Nothing but the lies taught me to not trust
Family what's family for me it was hatred
That's all I knew growing up literally grew
Deaf to to the hatred for a time silence was
Resentment the voices in my head kept me
Sane no matter how hard I deny it to myself
Why do I find myself in this oasis
Is this nothing but a mirage
Got so many emotions vent through my art
But can I truly call these words art when
I write just to try and understand my jumbled
Thoughts that are bouncing in my damaged
Mind within the mind just keep writing till
You feel back to normal yet abnormal gotta
Balance on the cliff in fear it'll snap and I'll
Drown in the sea and rain of whatever the
Void wishes on me whispering sickly in my
Ear yet I'm unable to decipher the voice it
Uses to drive me into thinking of suicide it
Only takes one quick slash and my life will
Ebb lick flame being extinguished I won't
Do it I'll try to find the beauty and light I'm
Not going die because of my own insecurities
Find the courage to keep battling with the
Depression the fear the anxiety for myself
My mind sometimes feels like a mirage but
I just gotta find the oasis within my ashen
Soul burdened by wounds of hell left it
Altered a copy of myself cold and numb
Why do I find myself in this oasis
Is this nothing but a mirage
YOU ARE READING
words from a broken soul
Poésiejust a collection of free verse/rondel poems(short stories to lengthy ones I guess) I've written over the course of ten months so far some won't be uploaded as I know they would get flagged as to dark of topics so yeah enjoy or don't. Feed back is h...
