words from a broken soul

Broken

We're all broken to a degree
Yet all I want is to feel what I never got
Growing up in hell all I felt was hatred
Not once did I feel like I was loved
But know love is all I crave
We're all broken to a degree

But I don't think anyone outside of family
Will love me my reason is because of
How broken I am yet I try to pick up
The pieces to myself hide how broken
I am behind a mask that's just as equally
Broken yet I keep repairing it to hide behind
Never really like how fractured I am
But I gotta make do with what I am
We're all broken to a degree

Who in their right mind would
Put up with a fractured person
Some who has thoughts of snuffing
Their life out like a flame that never
Got its chance in lighting the pit
As if those thoughts don't happen daily
Who listens to music just to feel
Someone who kills their emotions to
Become cold and numb because
Emotions are a bloody weakness
We're all broken to a degree

Emotions usually led me to more pain
If it wasn't for my past and growing up
Maybe then I wouldn't value being numb
When you become numb to hell you learn
To kill things in yourself to be perfect in
Someone else's eyes well the truths
Killing you emotions becoming cold and numb
It does more harm than you think
Makes most relationships feel like
You're fighting yourself just to be heard
We're all broken to a degree

And when you fight yourself no one wins
But the people who made you into your
Own worst enemy just for their own
Sick and twisted reason of the past
That's best left forgotten and collecting dust
But you can't help but fight yourself
Because what others told you have
Become the truth in you brain
Yet it can't seem to justify these "truths"
When you hate yourself in my case
Those who hurt me have one but
Loving myself makes me want to bet
Against a double barrel shotgun
As I play Russian roulette odds are
Always against me in that regard
We're all broken to a degree

I rather suffer in loneliness
Then force someone to be there for the
Broken ghost that I am in this game of life
Because at least when I'm alone I don't have
To put on an act of being fine
Yet this would is just full of people
Acting like everything is fine
Yet those who are broken know that
Everything is far from being fine
We're all broken to a degree