My faith has long died
I grew up in a hell house
Something I wouldn't wish on others
The rape the yelling the molestation
All the reasons I have no faith
My Faith has long died
What sick fucking game are the gods playing
I was a fucking child being
Raped by a dead beat father the
Reason I was supposed to be a girl
The molestation by the dead beats mom
Was to teach me how to please a woman
Bullshit fucking all of it
My Faith has long died
The saying it happens gods way
Load of fucking horse shit why should
I as a child be subject to sexual abuse
Explain that to me actually don't
There's no reason that I had to
Endure that shit but some say it's gods will
Well fuck gods will
My Faith has long died
The abuse it molded me
To keep people at arms length
Just to save myself from being
Hurt again like I was growing up
It's nothing personal it's just a byproduct
Of the abuse I went through
My Faith has long died
The yelling the fucking yelling
Over the most bullshit stuff
Day after day
So loud it made me deaf
No way to communicate for a God damn year
The silence of being deaf torturous
Everything is muted drowned distanced
My Faith has long died
I constantly hear his sickening voice
Reminding me of my past I want to
Forget but no
The pain they inflicted is imprinted on my soul
Imprinted in my brain constantly
Haunting me
Breaking me
Taunting me
Stabbing me
Torturing me
Twisting the knife in me
Ripping it out of me harshly
Staring at me
Looking in disgust
My Faith has long died
The real disgust is that these humans are sick twisted
Fucks that need to burn for what they did
The want to burn them for what they did
Wrong I know but I know better
Than to do it but God is its a fun
Thought to entertain watch as the flesh
Melts from bone watch as they fail
Smirking at the thought but I'll never do it
My faith has long died
The only reason I'm not dead is because of
The pain it would inflict on others
Heart of gold with a fucked
View of the world
Everyone is out for themselves
In this dystopian society
That's what I learned growing up
Never felt like people genuinely cared about me
I know they did But the pain it changed
Me into a monster of depression
I've been Masking my emotions for
As long as I can fucking remember
My faith has long died
YOU ARE READING
words from a broken soul
PoetryI don't own the two songs I've posted on the two newest poems but give them a listen if you like. just a collection of free verse/rondel poems(short stories to lengthy ones I guess) I've written over the course of ten months so far some won't be upl...
