words from a broken soul

Abnormal

Society tells us to fit into boxes if you don't it's not good
Well it's not good if you have an illness that
Isn't depression or anxiety people see you in
A different light and yet you try to fit in the
Box people tell you to but you just can't but
If you're queer and depending on the place
You live in you're most likely watching your
Back because some people see being queer
As a threat to their well being when they're
The threat to our well being I'm demi yet
Not many know it because it's not normal
If your Trans I pray your flames doesn't die
Become embers people forget about this
World we live in is full of so much hatred
So much pain and misery our community
Is always being told we groom children yet
Society tells us to fit into boxes if you don't it's not good

The ones saying these lies let the church
Groom their children and it's fine they don't
See the statistics of how many children
Have been abused by the church which
Over the 20th-21st century there have
Been 2,000 in Illinois alone from 1950-2018
But yeah sure the people who just want
To live their life's are the ones who's grooming children
To the trans people you matter and deserve
To live the life of the true you no matter
What you don't have a mental illness like
The people say you do it's just how you
Feel about yourself that matters people
Keep proving that the world is full of Nightmares pretending to be humans
There's good people in the world yes but
I've seen to much death and violence just
To my community the most recent death
Was Nex Benedict they were beaten to death
May the next life whatever it may hold
Be better than their final moments fly high Nex
Society tells us to fit into boxes if you don't it's not good

Abnormal it's all I've ever know growing up
Yet I've learned I have to wear a mask so
People don't invalidate my disorder as
Something fake and attention seeking
Honestly I may not be Trans but I know
What it's like to pretend to be something
That you aren't how exhausting it is just
Trying to live life suffering in silence for
That is the only way to keep yourself safe
From the horrors pretending to be human
I know it's not the same but I've read things
About how I want attention but I rather be
A ghost someone who's easily forgotten
Because that's what I grew up feeling my
Psyche is truly damaged my brain fractured
Got dissociative identity disorder and to
Others It's not real I'm playing pretend for
Sympathy fuck that what I lived through
It broke me I can only imagine how much
Worse it is for Trans people the Hatred
People have just because you don't fit into
The boxes Society set up as normal nah fuck
Normal because what is normal was it
Normal for me to be sexual abused by family
Under the pretense to learn how to please a woman
Was it normal for me to be used as a punching bag
No it wasn't yet it was for me to suffer
And yet what I went through isn't nearly
As bad as what Trans people go through
If they aren't murdered or driven to suicide
I hope every Trans person can one day feel
Safe to be their true self unafraid if this day
Might be their last day of their life because
Someone sees them as threat to others but
The true threat are the ones who can't stand
Someone living their life they way want for
It's abnormal and doesn't fit in to those fucking boxes society determined
Society tells us to fit into boxes if you don't it's not good